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My Struggle

Thursday, March 07, 2013

So throughout the day I have been thinking about all of the times that things in life got tough and I gave up. Fitness, Nutrition, and weight loss are no exception to this. I can remember at one point in my late teens early 20's I had lost 50 pounds over the course of 3 months and looked great. However what my friends and family didn't know was that I was secretly eating 8 diet fuel pills a day and not much else. It was easy and best of all I DIDN'T HAVE To EXERCISE!!!! I was in my mid twenties and yet again I was at a weight I was unhappy with and again I went for my trusty diet fuel pills. Little did I know that all formulas had been changed and no longer had ephedra in them. To my surprise I was still hungry and wasn't dropping the weight. I did the next thing I could think of. I didn't eat. No food= eventual weight loss!!

Now this is the point that I have to say each time I did these foolish acts not only did I regain the weight, but extra pounds on top of it. I was a tall thin teenager. I was always 5'10-11ish and 110-118 pounds. With the first weight gain I reached 150. That was devastating to me. By my mid twenties I was pushing 200. Each time I would lose copious amounts of weight I would then gain it all back plus some. At 30 years old I weighed in at 258 pounds. Yet again I went for my old faithful. No food for me! I decided to throw a little twist into it though. I started to exercise. I walked. Not just 15 minutes here and there but SEVERAL miles a week. I got myself below 200 again and I felt like a million bucks!

Here I am almost 3 years later....
I am again approaching my all time high. I am scared. I know the pattern. I have spent the better part of the last 15 years living this crazy unhealthy lifestyle.
I am now a Registered Nurse. I know that all of the things I was doing in the past was detrimental to my health. This time is different. I was able to quit smoking over 5 years ago and never looked back. I was also able to graduate from one of the toughest nursing schools in the state. If that is possible ANYTHING is possible!

My issues:
I love to snack! I have tried substituting healthier choices but I am still eating more than one serving per setting. I am still eating entirely too much sodium.
I seriously lack motivation. I have a million and one excuses why I can't hit the gym or walk or well... do any physical activity at all. Luckily I work on my feet at least 8 hours a day so I am getting some activity but not nearly enough.
I have limited support.

The Positives:
I am DETERMINED to make any and all changes needed to succeed.
I LOVE to Bike. (I'm getting a new to me bike soon!!)
Hiking, softball, and volleyball are all activities I enjoy. (Although I am not very good)
I have an adorable 2 year old nephew that I want to be around to watch grow up. (Serious motivation!!)

I am hoping to finally see the woman I know is hiding under the hoodies and yoga pants.

Oh and a fitness/motivation buddy would be nice too!
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