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Thursday, March 07, 2013

Just can't stand another month of this.

Not sure what is wrong.

Hate the standards of medical care.

Just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

This long cycle is just really cruel.

At times I think I hate my life when I really don't, I just hate this aspect.

Very sad here. Trying to see the positive that if AF is starting well then a new chance is going to happen instead of waiting around to keep getting negative tests...


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    1925 days ago
  • MCK0582
    I don't know about your background, but I agree with HAUSHINKA1. The first year was the worst for me b/c there was so much I didn't know. Seeing everyone around me have it so easy was rough. We have now been TTC for about 3 1/2 years and although it is still a struggle and my plan has long been thrown out the window, meeting with doctors and feeling more in control has really helped. I also remind myself that 10 years from now, I'll be a parent in one way or the other, regardless of how my original life plan looked and I'll be happy in that position no matter what. Hang in there.
    1929 days ago
    I'm sorry. It does suck a lot.
    As someone who's been on the TTC road for 2½ years now, believe me when I say the first year was the worst.
    I also wanted kids before I turned 30. That was my main goal. And, when I tossed the BCP when I turned 28, I thought surely, I will be a mother within 2 years?
    I'm now getting closer to 31 and still no baby. And I'm accepting the fact that I'm not one of those who can plan this, like 90% of the population. It's unfair, but I can only do so much.

    I know everybody will tell you to hang in there and that things will get better. But it's true, and chances are very good that you will concieve within the next year or so.
    You are welcome to the infertility team for support, if you feel ready for it. I'm the leader! emoticon

    1929 days ago
    I'm sorry you are going through this. It can be very very frustrating. Just hang in there! I am going through something similar. My hubby and I have been trying for another baby since July. I came off Mirena where I wasn't getting periods. I was supposed to start having them again within a few weeks of coming off the birth control. Well, it's been 9 months and my body hasn't done anything. I have been trying supplements hoping they will help. I just started a new one called Maca that says it can balance hormones naturally. I'm hoping it will finally help me. I wish you the best!
    1929 days ago
    Hang in there, remember things never stay the same. Here's hoping things turn around soon, praying for you and sending hugs.
    1929 days ago
    1930 days ago
    Remember, we always have 'up' and 'down' days. I am just so thankful that we have good medical care here. So many people don't have access to anything like the 'worst' we have here.
    Hang in there; it will get better, and if not - we'll just learn to live with that too!
    1930 days ago
    I understand.

    I am hating medical care at this time.

    I hate my illness and all the trouble it brings

    I continue to pray for relief somehow... emoticon
    1930 days ago
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