Today I got out of the house. I ran around with my girls shopping.
The way that this went is that I didn't sleep much last night. I had trouble sleeping last night and didn't want to get up to go shopping.
I laid in bed hoping that Victoria (my daughter) would change her mind about going. I was determined to try to talk her into going tomorrow. When she came in to my room to ask me if I was feeling better and if I was going to go with her. I told her that I was feeling fine but that I didn't get much sleep. She said that she was going to get ready to go and if I wanted to go, I still had time to get ready.
Normally, I would have come up with some reason to just stay home. Maybe I would tell her that since I didn't get much sleep, I would stay home to sleep a bit more. I might have told her that I had some other things to do so I would rather stay home to get them done.
Today, I thought about it for a couple minutes, thinking about what clothes I had to wear and decided to get up and get ready. I got to wear my new jeans and tennis shoes. Victoria said I looked nice. Marlie said she liked my earrings.
This whole thing about changing my attitude is to turn negatives into positives but also so that I can begin to live life and do things that I have been avoiding. Okay so no, I haven't avoided going shopping all my life but in the last couple years going shopping has either caused me some major anxiety attacks or I just not felt any desire to go. I was just content to just let my life pass me by as I sat at home hidden away.
We had a good time. I am glad that I went. We have already made plans to go out again tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. We have some grocery shopping to do so that will be a big trip.
I know that the more that I try to get up and go, the more I will get out there and do things that I used to do a few years ago. Once I get back to doing those things, I can move on to trying things I haven't done in a long time or things I haven't tried but have always wanted to try.
The good thing about me getting out of the house is that I get more walking in and time in the fresh air. I wish I could have said that the sun was shining but it was raining today. That's okay, I enjoyed the day anyway.
Here's to a great day with the girls!
Much love and positive changes!