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Wednesday, March 06, 2013

So, after being back on track for about 9 days I had a super binge on the 28th, and then ate within range on the first and second, and then since the 3rd, I have been eating crap as well as eating over my calorie range. I still have a calorie differential, as I'm still exercising, but if anything, I'm just exercising enough to maintain.
I'm also happy because what I am maintaining is lower than what I was maintaining before. I'm getting seriously pissed off with myself. I'm jealous of my fiance because he can go hours without eating-simply because he's not hungry. I eat just because "It's time to eat", I also noticed that my protein intake is very low. I haven't had meat sine last Saturday, and what protein I have been eating is in the form of peanut butter, and I had some eggs a couple days ago. I feel like crap, and I hate the fact that once again, I've gotten SO close to my goal, yet I can't manage to keep going. I'm pretty sure that the lack of protein is causing me to crave sweets. The foods I have been eating are convenience foods. The last grocery shop we did wasn't very good.
I know I'm super stressed from school, and I'm guessing that that's a serious source of my stress eating.

*I have to finish an assignment for one of my classes that's already hard to do.
*Spanish Test on Friday
*Oral Spanish test next Wednesday
*I have to conduct a content analysis and write up my findings in a 5-page paper-due the following Wednesday
*I have a test to study for, that I will be taking next Monday
*I have to write up 5 short proposals which are due also the following Wednesday
*I have to do an analysis of someone else's research using a computer program that we learned about this term, and write a paper on that due in 2 weeks
*I know I'm going to have a final for one of my other classes, but the topic of it hasn't yet been assigned.

Basically, I've got a lot of crap to do. I guess instead of sitting on my butt here at home, I should really get on this. It's just so overwhelming. I'm going to at least continue to maintain until the end of the term, and then once that's out of the way, I'll have more time to dedicate to me. I know that the stress from this term is REALLY getting to me!

The good news is that I'm not doomed, I repeat, NOT DOOMED. This is just that 'life' part of 'life changes' that we all talk about. I guess part of this is light procrastination on my part, but there are other things that I had no control over. Anyway...the term is almost over, and once I get my awesome grades, I'm sure I'll be fine. I just need to take a moment and breathe.
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  • MICHAEL832
    Wow, you really gotta get your protein up and diet in check. Fail to plan, you plan to fail. Protein should be the basis of your diet (along with healthy carbs).

    Here's some EASY items to up your protein:
    String cheese (Precious tastes the best)
    Greek yogurt (Fage plain 2% has 20gr of protein!...on sale at Fred's for $1)
    Whey protein shakes (add 1c. skim milk for 8 additional grams of protein)

    Just combine any of the above with an apple or banana (or even frozen peas) for a small meal/snack.

    2233 days ago
  • _BABE_
    I can't give you any advice but to say you have it in you to do have been doing this! emoticon
    2239 days ago
    Have you tried hemp seeds before? They pack a protein punch much higher than peanut butter. I eat them by themselves or sprinkled on vegetables but a lot of people like them in a shake. There are some good protein powders on the market but they're damn expensive. Might be worth a try, though, if you find you're not satisfied during your meals.

    I've been sabattaging myself daily. Eating is an addiction and it's a hard one to overcome. One of my friends (who also has an eating disorder) is studying chinese medicine. It's as stressful as becoming a doctor is. She uses acupunture as a stress-reducer and tai-chi and meditation on her own. Something to think about!

    If you still have a chunk of weight you'd like to remove, why not aim for a smaller differencial? Aim to eat 150 calories less than what you should eat maintaining. You'll still lose weight without the stress of eating like you're on a "diet".

    I hope you ace everything! I HATE oral exams.
    2239 days ago
  • no profile photo A_WISE_WOMAN
    emoticon And I was just reading that it seems that women need to eat more to a schedule than men do in order to lose weight... I'm glad that you're looking at it all from a different perspective; after all, we are looking to change a MAJOR CHUNK of our lives, and somehow if we revert to old habits for a little while (which is certainly much more likely under stress) we beat ourselves up for not being perfectly on point. Nobody's perfect!
    2239 days ago
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