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Wednesday, March 06, 2013

This year has been a year of major change for me and getting seriously focused on my life goals. I have been super motivated and positive and encouraged. My mental health has been better than I've felt since November. I have really accomplished a lot and I want to review that below. Today however I am really struggling. I have not lost any weight at all and have not lost any noticeable inches. I am sick of counting the days between paychecks and wishing I could speed them up. I am tired of saying "no" to my daughter so much. I am tired of not making measurable progress. I just needed to vent that because today I feel like giving up. Something I recently added to my spark page is really striking home with me today.

If you are tired of starting over, quit giving up.

That said, I have done pretty well so far this year.

I have walked/jogged 50 miles.
I have gone 3 weeks without sugar.
I have reduced my caffeine from 3 servings a day to 3 a week.
I have consistently worked out four days a week.
I have opened a savings account and deposited as much as possible in to it every pay period.
I have paid of my credit card debt.
I owe less on my car than it is worth and will pay it off this year.
I have maintained a healthy blood sugar level consistently.

I need to focus on the positive but for some reason it is really hard to do today.

"The bathroom mirror has not budged, and the woman who lives there can tell, the truth from the stuff that they say. She looks me in the eye and says "Would you prefer the easy way? No well okay then, don't cry." (ani difranco)
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    make the positive your focal point.
    You are strong than than the set backs emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1897 days ago
    Everybody has those "blah" days. It is FABULOUS that you recognize that we have these "human" days and then pick yourself up...and dust yourself off... and keep on going. I try to tell myself all the time when I am discouraged by the scale or the tape measure... "Well you didn't get fat overnight, so it's not going to come off overnight." Keep a mental picture in your head of what you will look like at the end of 6 months, or the end of 12 months. You can do this!!!
    1899 days ago
  • AMBER281
    I think you are doing great.
    Struggling sucks...I know from experience. Just take comfort that you are not alone, most if not all of us have gone through this at some point. It will turn around eventually!
    1901 days ago
    Hugs, I am thinking you are doing great! I think it is hard not to be impatient, but stepping back and seeing what you have done this year will help. I feel this is your year!
    1903 days ago
    Struggling sucks no other way to say it. I think these are the most important times to keep going.. The most important times to treat ourselves right and maybe the easiest times to just give up. I'm glad you don't want to give up.. If I can help in anyway send me a message. Hope your Body can give your mind a boost. Every little bit helps.
    Be proud of all the HARD things you have already done this year.. Mostly BE PROUD of YOURSELF.

    1903 days ago
    You are doing great sweetie!! dont let the bas stuff get you down!! all of your good stuff out weighs all of that! Just keep doing what you are doing!!
    1903 days ago
    How can I help?

    1903 days ago
    The current lack of change in your measurements and weight is impermanent, but it probably feels permanent. Your list of accomplishments is awesome, and will yet reflect the weight and measurement changes you desire! emoticon
    1903 days ago
  • 123456789100
    You already have so much under your belt.. I know that intellectually you know plateaus happen, but emotionally they are much harder to take. just keep on reviewing what you are doing and keep moving in the right direction, eventually the results will show up!
    1903 days ago
    Wow..I hope writing down all you have accomplished this year has helped you to see how successful you are!!

    You are doing so great!! I am really impressed and inspired!!

    Great job!! Go Starfish!!
    1903 days ago
    WOW!! So much you have accomplished this year! Pat yourself on the back and then encourage yourself to keep going! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1903 days ago
    You are doing a great job! emoticon emoticon
    1903 days ago
    Sounds like you are doing a wonderful job...remember, even if the scale isn't moving, if you're making healthy choices consistently, your body is getting stronger and healthier on the inside, and will thank you for being good to it. Keep pushing!
    1903 days ago
    Sometimes it is hard to focus on the positive but when in doubt, write it out! You must be proud of your many accomplishments -- I'm proud for you! Sounds like you've had some tough times but you are not letting them sap your motivation or end your dreams!
    1903 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/6/2013 8:08:20 PM
  • UNICORN212
    There are important changes going on inside of you - not just in your brain, but in your heart, lungs, liver, pancreas, etc. The outside will catch up. Sometimes it takes a while. Just keep doing what needs to be done.

    Your list of accomplishments is wonderful - you have truly come a long way and you should be proud of yourself and all that you have done.
    1903 days ago
    You have made huge progress this year and it's barely March! I'm very impressed.

    I hope you are feeling better by the time you read this.
    1903 days ago
    You have made some amazing changes to benefit your health and to your finances, keep with it your body will catch up!
    1903 days ago
    You are doing a wonderful job. I know it get's frustrating but keeping putting forth that effort results will come!
    1903 days ago
  • MONAKIN314
    You've done great!!!
    We all have days that we feel like giving up, but remember you are worth the effort even on those days!

    Stay Strong!!!

    Go Starfish!
    1903 days ago
    keep accentuating the positive
    1903 days ago
    I love Dave! are doing realy gook. keep it up emoticon
    1903 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Dave Ramsey says it is important to pay off credit cards.

    I'm reading Richard Bernstein MD's "The Diabetic Diet" and recommend his lectures on YouTube. He has had Type 1 since age 12 and he is 78 now. He treats mostly obese people who are Type 2.
    1903 days ago
    You are doing amazing this year! I am so incredibly proud of everything you have accomplished and all you have planned! Love you!
    1903 days ago
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