Wednesday, March 06, 2013
Our minds are very powerful. what we think on can help us or hurt us. I of a verse in the bible that says. As a man thinks so is he...Where our thoughts go our body's follow. I feel that it has been a great battle over my mind breaking thoughts that are self defeating. I'm spending more time in prayer and the word of God to overcome these poor self images of my self. I grew up in a home of 9 sibling's and 2 parents. Had a lot of verbal and physical abuse to say the least. Those things carry with us through out life. I have been walking with Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior for over 20 years now. I have grown allot in him. I still have much more to over come, but with my Lords help I will over come the spirit of shame and rejection. So powerful are my foes, but JESUS CHRIST is greater and more powerful than they are. It may take me a life time to get to where I am going but one thing is for sure, I will not give up and my LORD Jesus will not give up or let me go. Overcoming a life time of pain and loss and rejection and shame is not easy. I'm growing in this journey of weight loss know that my weight is something I have had to deal with since I was a little girl. Abuse started early in my life...I think what and where will I have been in this life if I had not had any of it. If I only had parents who were not abusive and shaming me all the time.
Now I can see some things that have kept me back from moving forward in life...weight is one of the equations. Self image the other. God is good to point me to the right path to walk in . His way is truth and peaceable...Life and death are in the power of the tounge. We will all eat the fruit of it. I'm praying for God to help me to pray and speak more life giving things over my life. I also am praying for God to give me more good self images of myself. Stop seeing myself as a failure and start seeing my self as a winner in Christ Jesus my Lord.