KEEPING ME FAT
Wednesday, March 06, 2013
Today I am coming face to face with the fact that I do denial so well that is is true , I Don't Even Know I Am Lying, to myself.
It is humbling to say the least. The fact that I can do so many things well and not succeed at keeping my body, the temple which I was gifted, thin and healthy. I am ashamed and guilty today to admit I have failed myself.
I stopped journaling but I need to resume it though it seems like just another chore at this point in my busy day but I need to come to terms of how I am using food.
Unless I get to the bottom of all those reasons it seems all for nothing.
The only thing I feel Spark Site Does not Address is the Emotional Components of Eating.
Maybe its here and I am missing something. I recognize changing the eating habits to healthy ones and exercise into a habit but how does one change a life long way of thinking and using food.
When you get older and the metabolism slows down, not as active don't have as many new dreams, experiences, love and more in your life what does one do? I seem to be ranting but I am so sick of working hard to loose significant amount of weight and then sabotaging myself with my thinking and putting it back on again.
I welcome any suggestions to stop the roller coaster since I try so much but it does not seem to stick permanently is there a magic button that makes for a while turn into for the rest of your life?
Love and Gratitude to my Spark Family