I am back. I need help.

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I can't believe how much I have let go. Of everything. I was doing really well...and then it all got to be too much, so I just had to take a break.
I haven't really made any progress towards my goal, but thankfully, I haven't gained too much either.
So much has happened since the last time I was on here, which I believe was sometime around October. My first recital, finals, concerts, and so many other things. I had still been trying to stick to my goal, but stopped tracking and eventually stopped exercising and caring all together.
And then this semester started.
I've never worked so hard in my life.
My classes are extremely difficult and I'm struggling to keep up with the workload. I'm stressed and exhausted and it's been really difficult for me to keep pushing.
I'm now working at two different schools to be able to support myself, and I am drained of energy. I'm eating horribly and haven't been working out.
Well, that needs to change. I need to make time for it, because it is important.

I know I'm sort of rambling, but basically what I'm trying to say is that I need help. I need help getting back on track. I need help staying motivated. I need help to reach my goal.

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  • ANDI_3K
    Hi, I want to encourage you to come back to Spark, make it part of your life and get involved here again. I, too am a student, and it's heck on wheels trying to get everything done...but you know what? I find I work better after clearing my head and getting active, as much as I can.
    I take time everyday to get away from the papers and projects and Spark, even if it's just to log points and visit my teams.
    You are worth the effort and we are here to help. I hope we see more of you at the violinist's team, we can support each other.
    1861 days ago
  • INSH8P
    Hi, from InSh8p.
    Thank goodness you have figured out a way to support yourself. Even though it is at two different schools, you are making it happen.
    BTW you are in control, right now. You may not think that you have the time, patience or energy to "do something" about what you say is "out of control" -- but you do have the capacity to stop the damage from getting any worse.
    OK. So what do you do next? Only you know how you can allocate the remaining energy to continue to keep things steady, not getting worse. Choose two tools - one emotional -- one food - to stay grounded and see how that works.
    What do I mean? Example: I choose to eat xxx number of veggie servings this week. This really helps you so that you are not so stressed by having to meet goals every day. Teaching is hard enough. [Been there, done that]
    Example: I choose to drink a non-calorie drink instead of other choices. "Smart substitutions". You meet the need for liquid / crunch / soft / fullness in a way that is compatible with your goals.
    The above tools are food tools

    For emotional tools, think about breathing techniques for stress reduction; a daily mantra; 5 minutes of "me" time - given to yourself unconditionally: good day or bad day.

    Some SparkPeople members may say: "Just get back into it". But I know: It's not that easy. If all you do is log in, and keep us up-to-date with a blog a week -- I would say that is doing a lot, under your circumstances.

    Best wishes
    I know that
    1861 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/16/2013 3:18:29 PM
    Make Spark a part of your life and try and make it convenient since you are limited on time. Download the apps on your phone and log your food. This is such a good start and its quick and easy! Get you a pedometer and wear it so you can track your steps. If you can get in 10,000 steps a day and keep your calories below 1600, you will lose weight! Your already active so you are doing it because like you said, you haven't gained much back. So a deficit in calories and more walking would set you right back on track without much efforts!

    1872 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    you know what you need and want to do. set your plan and goals and get with it.
    1872 days ago
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