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Tuesday, March 05, 2013

I'm fighting a feeling of no direction. I think it's got a lot to do with my dad. Next week, he gets moved into hospice. It weighs on me. The result is inconsistency and lack of focus. Friday, I took a day of vacation. I knew Thursday I had to. I didn't tell anyone, so there was no demands on me. I just stayed in bed, stared at the ceiling, and slept. Saturday, I got up and going. Got my daughter to work, ran some errands, spent 3 hours with Dad, and got in a really nice, long, demanding workout. I thought things were coming around. Sunday, I got some more errands done, but at the gym I was just going through the motions. I didn't want to be there and it showed in the workout. I'm glad I got there and got one in, but it really didn't do much. Last night was another long, butt kicking workout. 2 hours of leg torture. I loved it. This weekend was like my life of late...up,down, up, down. Today, I took a rest day. Tomorrow it's time for the back and abs to get punished a bit. I hope I can build on the momentum.
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  • BILL60
    You're going through some tough times. Enjoy your times with Dad and remember the good times. Hang tough, my friend.
    2211 days ago
    Believe it or not those workouts are probably helping you more than you think. I find that when I have a lot on my mind or stress in my life my workouts help to let me zone on something other than my troubles. You and your family are always in my prayers!
    2211 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Hang in there, when our morale is lagging, it shows in many ways. Spending time with your old man is more important.
    2211 days ago
  • no profile photo GIGIQUE138
    Hang in there! You are going through an extremely challenging time--you need to be kind to yourself. The emotional gambit of having a family-member going to (and in) hospice will often result in feelings of depression, helplessness, and a lack of energy. You need to do positive things for yourself, both to keep your spirits as high as possible (given the circumstances) and to build a momentum physically and emotionally. CONGRATS on those great workouts! You CAN and WILL achieve your goals!

    Sending you prayers and positive energy!
    2211 days ago
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