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Not a good day yesterday..

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Well, it was bound to happen. I really blew it yesterday. I woke up with my knee hurting and knew I couldn't walk or go to the gym. The day before I took a long walk and felt fine, but the next morning. Ouch!
I felt so frustrated about the pain coming back again and not being able to move forward. And for some reason, the frustration of lying around on the sofa all day led to a binge. Well, ok not the kind of binge I used to have, but this kind of mindless eating has not happened in months. I'll confess, I ate more than half of a bag of white chocolate Easter eggs that I had in the house for someone else. And I knew it was the wrong thing to be doing, but at that moment, I just didn't care.

So looking at this little 'food bender' in the cold light of the morning, I wish I could say why it happened. Not to berate and blame as is my usual pattern, but to understand, so it won't happen again. There has been a lot of stressful things going on at the moment and then the frustration of a knee that won't heal.. Exercise and walking have been my stress reducer at the moment and having to curtail what I usually do is hard. I miss the gym! So, that is what I will be looking at this week, why it happened, as I rest the knee once again... emoticon

Oh boy, I never thought the journey would be easy but I thought these kind of days were behind me. It's scary to think that 'binge girl' is just under the surface, waiting to rise up the minute life gets hard.
On to easier days...
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    You are still ahead of your past. We live and learn and happily get another chance. We can do this! emoticon
    1901 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your knee pain. It really puts a knot in what you'd like to do for activity. As for the mindless eating "bender", I had the same experience earlier in the week. Yes, I agree it's so disappointing, but looking for ways to avoid a next time is a really smart thing for you to do. In my case, I think it was letting myself lose focus, and that might have been part of your "reason" as well.

    But you're here talking instead of eating. And you know what to do, so you won't let it lead to a longer lasting mistake, because you've learned too much. And you're serious about this - I know you are.

    Don't beat yourself up. You can do this, my friend. You can because WE CAN.

    :) Gail
    1901 days ago
    I am wondering if you are trying to do too much too soon with that knee. When I injured my left knee it would be better & then hurt again. I ended up having therapy to strengthen the muscles. I could have done most of that at home. Maybe that is what your knee needs. You can probably find the exercises on line. The other knee when I hurt it I had to have surgery. I hope that is not the case with you. As far as your binge. I'm pretty sure we are all going to do that from time to time. Don't beat yourself up. I'm sure you are back on track now. That is the important thing.

    1902 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Emotional eating lapses occur in our lives. They just do.


    Here's to you for stopping at half the bag!


    The "emotional eater girl" in my head will always be a part of me and I acknowledge that. I don't want to fight with her, I want peace with her. It's why I work on aligning my thoughts and my body. It's why I am always looking for coping strategies and mechanisms I can use!

    My brief experience so far has been pro-active works better for me than re-active. So there's been a lot of editing and pruning of all things negative.


    Being more sedentary than you wish is more than your inner "binge girl" can tolerate. Are there gym activities that you can participate in with limited range of motion?


    Again, emotional eating lapses occur in our lives. They just do. Be gentle with yourself.


    You already learned that you don't care for the way it made you feel and you're not likely to soon forget.


    1902 days ago
    emoticon The Blessing here is that it "Was Not A Binge Like I've Had In The Past". And instead of wasting time or compounding the Problem by berating yourself or blaming whatever, you are looking at it as a Learning Experience.
    emoticon That is a sign of how far you have come in your Journey, and that you WILL be Successful.
    1902 days ago
    And for some reason, the frustration of lying around on the sofa all day led to a binge. Heck I would be very defeated, too. I But I would end up, at some point hopefully, very hopefully, find some other way of doing.

    Don't feel bad about that, It could have been a worst binge! We have done worst in the past. lol

    Ask someone to take all binge foods out of the house! Heck if they can take the sofa out of the house do it! lol

    Keep trying to find something other than food, like all sitting exercise video's on spark people. Do them all in one day, lol.

    You can do this, you are a strong, very strong person!
    1902 days ago
    A Blog for a Blog: Here is mine from yesterday maybe it can help you along your way...

    I started this journey with a goal of losing weight and loosing it FAST. I wanted it gone yesterday!! I wanted to take one of those giant erasers and just erase all the fat from my thighs, tummy, chin, face, arms etc..

    I am so thankful that it wasn't that easy to do because as I have begun this new ending to my last beginning. I have been learning so much more is involved then just doing 24 hours of jumping jacks for the next 6 months it's about slowing down and taking inventory of what is going on Inside of me.

    This path has been giving me better insight to me, who I am and where I am headed. I thought I had most of my past worked out, let go and have been moving on. But I guess I didn't clean out those corners, nor under the rugs because I have now seen deeper into my soul then ever before.

    I am becoming a stronger person, letting go of forgotten fears, feelings of guilt, dusty memories, cloudy thoughts, moving forward, the weight will slowly melt away from the coal of my soul and a shiny new gem is emerging. I have gone through some life changing moments as I started sparking, back in November and it is NO longer important that I must do everything at once, It is important that I am getting to know me better and I am liking who I am.

    It is not about a pound lost or gained it is about the knowledge I have acquired on this journey the people along the way have giving me deeper insight to me! I am thankful for who I am no matter what size I am. today I hug myself and say hey I am doing all right, I accept and I love me just the way I am!

    Every now and again I stumble, fall down, I wipe the tears of the past away, pull up my big girl pants, brush off my dirty knees, take a deep breath, stand tall and proud and yell out loud, I am still here, I won't give up, and today is a great day to just be alive!

    So this has somehow turned out to be more of a de-cluttering of the mind, opening up the heart, a journey to the inside of me, in order to change the outside, I am somehow losing weight from the inside. I did not see it working this way a unexpected detour but I have accepted it has to be this way for me, for me to reach my goal.

    This may not make a lot of sense to any of you who may stumble upon this blog but is sure made sense to me when I opened my eyes this morning...

    See Sissie we are all in this thing called "LIFE" together to help each other along in different ways, with different needs at different times... Smile because we are all here for YOU!!! Oh yeah forget about it so you ate some eggs, they hit the spot, you felt good for a moment, no need to punish yourself for enjoying the moment, you are human and it's okay YOUR OK!

    emoticon emoticon
    Kick the egg episode to the curb, laugh it off and oh yeah Just keep on keeping on and don't ever, ever, never give up on YOU!
    1902 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/5/2013 9:00:48 AM
    me too
    1902 days ago
    I think the stress and frustration of not being able to walk or go to the gym are the root of the binge eating last night.
    I do encourage you however to fully understand why so you can put things into place to possibly stop the next one.
    Are there any exercises or stretching that you can do?
    I know yesterday seemed really bad but today is a new day to be successful and to try to rest the knee enough for healing to occur.
    1902 days ago
    Oh dear! Never mind Tomorrow is a new day! You can pick yourself right up and get back on the right track. I do understand your frustration with walking fine for 2 hours the day before and waking up with a sore knee. Rather Annoying I bet!

    But I have learnt with my hip troubles to accept that I cannot exercise (other than normal walking round the house, housework, going to shops etc) every single day or am I in pain the next day and sometimes for a few days afterwards.

    Yesterday I did 10 mins on my Elliptical machine today is my break day and I felt great after it yesterday but today my hips are a little sore and I am having to be careful with how I do things.

    but that is just a part of life and I have come to accept that I cannot exercise as much as I would like to be able to. As long as I am sticking to eating healthy and within my calorie range at the moment thats what I can do.

    Perhaps swimming, water walking or aqua classes in a pool a few times a week would be easier on your knee I am not sure. Just a thought?

    Don't beat yourself up over the slight binge we have all done it some stage and could easily do it again so you are not alone.

    Don't forget Spark People has the panic button you can use in such instances, I never used it though.

    Sending positive thoughts your way emoticon that your knee will heal very quickly.

    Take care,

    Paula emoticon
    1902 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/5/2013 4:31:38 AM
    I don't think that this sort of problem is ever fully behind. I was tempted yesterday to eat the milk chocolate and nut bar in the cupboard, but reminded myself how far I had come and what I wanted to gain, so managed to resist this time round. The easiest way is to not have the temptation there. Anyway, you still did well not to allow it to become the sort of binge you had in the past and the biggest importance is to put it behind you and move on which you're doing.
    So emoticon emoticon emoticon just keep on emoticon
    1902 days ago
    stress and frustration can be major factors in binge eating. Don't get down on yourself. Look at it and learn from it. emoticon
    1902 days ago
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