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Day One!

Monday, March 04, 2013

Well.. I am new to this. I have never blogged or shared my struggles with anyone. I figured this is the perfect place to get started. I see lots of other people on here struggling with the same things as me and it feels good to know I am not alone. Anyways, here it goes. I seriously feel like one day I woke up and looked in the mirror and the weight just appeared. I was in denial about my weight gain that I refused to notice that I was packing on the pounds. And then it hit me, like a ton of bricks right in the face. I looked at myself in the mirror and just cried. I couldn't believe that I had let myself go this far. I used to be so healthy. I started to reflect back on the past few years of my life and tried to figure what happened. It all started slowly. Eating out more than usual then late night binges on junk food. Started to feel less motivated and tired all the time and found myself laying on the couch with a bag of chips and pop. I have to add in that I have been dealing with anxiety and depression issues since I was 17. I stopped taking my medication for a few years and found that I was turning to food as comfort, which at the time I never noticed the connection. I have to admit that I did start to notice a difference in my weight at first but just brushed it off. I lived in sweat pants and rarely got into jeans or nice clothes. Then one day I put on my favourite pair of jeans and they wouldnt even go up past my hips!! What a slap in the face that was and even though I was devistated, I still went back to living in sweats and eating like crap and forgot about the whole incident. Time went on and I just didnt feel like doing anything. My friends wanted me to go out with them all the time and I would refuse to go knowing that I had nothing to wear and would feel like crap being around all of them. So now here I am. 3 years later and trying to lose all the weight I put on. I am up a total of 66 pounds and I feel every last pound of it. I am tired all the time, getting to the gym is such a hassle for me and eating right, well thats out the window. Today I am starting a new life. I have made small goals for myself. Today my goal is to walk for 30 mins. I cant expect to lose the weight overnight so I hoping that someone will read this and be my motivation. :)
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    You got this! Each step forward is a step away from whatever brought on the weight. You can do it friend! Good for your for making the change!
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    You are stronger than you think.
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    You can do it. It's worth it.
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    Welcome aboard to the train of success. Keep focused. You can do it. Go for it.
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    I AM reading this and I will ABSOLUTELY be your motivation as will many other people here at Spark. I have not been at this for very long but have been a yo-yo dieter for years and it wan't until I started being a Sparkler that I have found the motivation I need to keep going. I feel a new sense of commitment not only to myself (which is the most important) but to all of the other people who are struggling with weight loss. It's strange but you fell a sense of not wanting to disappoint people that you really don't even know because they are always cheering for you, giving praise and advice and support. It is true that people who join a community such as this one are more successful than people who try to go it alone. So welcome!! If you have decided this is the day and that you are truly motivated and willing to commit yourself and do what you need to do to become happy and healthy again then you are at the right place and we are all here to do this together. Get up off of the couch, go for that 30 minute walk I can bet that you will be surprised how much better you will instantly feel. I'm not saying that everyday will be easy.... it's not. But when you feel like you don't want to get up and exercise, just do it anyway and every day will better and you will feel more energized. And on the days when that doesn't work, turn to your Spark family and friends and we will help you as we help eachother every day!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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