Day 265: Procrastination
Monday, March 04, 2013
Hey everyone! Here's a quick, overdue, and simple blog.
I've missed you guys.
First reason I've put this blog off: I wanted to do a vlog and show off my new haircut.
It's short and fun. Just look up "Katherine Hegel short hair" and you'll see what it looks like. Now look at me and mentally slap that haircut on me. Yeah, that's right. I look just like Katherine Hegel now :-P
Reason number 2: I got angry.
Angry isn't even the word. I haven't worn my body media for a week (because when it says you've burned 3000 calories and you've consumed 1400 calories and the scale doesn't move it tends to incite rage.) I actually ignored Spark for the same reason.
I'm still ignoring them.
I'm still angry. And, to a certain extent, feeling defeated.
Reason number 3: I'm exhausted.
Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. You name it, I feel like I'm running on empty. Not only did I take a week of from the constant tracking I also took a week off from the constant running. I didn't run one mile last week. I thought about it, I felt bad when I didn't; but, I ignored my training. Then I put in 55 hours in the office. Then I got in that terrible fight with my online 'friend.' Then I... yeah, then I imploded.
Reason number 4: I lost two pounds doing all the wrong things.
No running. Eating what I wanted. Feeling crappy. Voilla - two pounds gone. I don't get it. It makes no sense. I'm sure they'll come back.
So, for today I'm more than just a little bit sore. I did run my planned 5K yesterday and finished in the neighborhood of 36 minutes. I also walked for part of it. That run broke my spirit. My brother, having his spirit broken as well, sat down and waited for me to pass him. In effect, he let me win. It was nice of him. As we both said on the car-ride to get victory pancakes (though, it's debatable whether yesterday was a victory or not) 'Ah, yes, not a single Frack was given this day!'
Yesterday I had an appointment with a massage therapist. She totally worked on my lower back and hips. Oh, and my feet. Today I'm sore from it - I'm hoping it's a good sore. After the 10 mile race last weekend where I ran on a sloped road for two hours I could feel my pelvis being out of line - so I decided to go and get myself beat back into shape. (Caution, this may be TMI) - I never knew how much I needed somebody to put there elbow into the muscle of my left buttcheek before; but, I do now.
It's a new week. Depending on how I feel tomorrow morning I may put my BodyMedia back on and start paying attention again. I just wanted to let you guys know I'm still here. I wanted to let you know I'm okay and that I miss sparking along with you all.
I was thinking on the walk in this morning - is this still about the weight, or is it about the race? Because I'm starting to wonder which is more important to me weighing 165 pounds or finishing the half marathon in may.
I think it's the race.
You wouldn't think that the two are mutually exclusive; but, I think that they are.
Have a great day, Sparklers, I hope your spirits are higher than mine!