Okay so day 3 was well...honestly, it was an emotional day for most of the morning.
I had a slow start as I was in some pain. My back was hurting and my feet and legs were causing me pain from the water retention. The water retention is getting better because I am drinking more water but it isn't gone yet. I can keep making sure I drink the water. I wanted to just stay in bed and whine and do the poor me dance. I was sulking and fussing like a baby. Yep I am serious. I am really good at the poor me, fussing like a baby dance. I did the dance for a while and then I slowly pulled my head out of the sand and got a better attitude. I was really slow to make that change but I had in the back of my mind that my challenge for myself was to work on my attitude and to have positive thoughts. How could I lay in bed boo hooing and doing the poor me dance? The objective is to be positive. The idea is to grow positively and change the 'TUDE!
Then I had a moment when my mind told me that I was a total failure in everything. When I say everything I mean that the negative thoughts said that I was a terrible wife, mother and that I was failure to myself. I had a short cry session. Then I sat up and said NO! I am not a failure. I just need to make some changes. I need to see myself in a new and positive light.
I came to a huge realization that my negative thinking about myself doesn't just affect my eating and whether I exercise or not. It also affects whether I do other things. When I think negatively about myself, I don't want to do anything. I want to avoid doing anything productive. I don't want to exercise. I don't want to get dressed. I don't want to take care of my home. I don't want to cook. I just want to slump around and eat all day and think more negative thoughts.
NO MORE!! I can't sit around here and do that. I can't let those thoughts affect me like that. I have got to stop them at the go! I have got to nip those negative thoughts in the bud before they take hold and run me back down the rabbit hole. I have to get out in front of them and when they start to rise up, I need to squash them quick fast and in a hurry and bring them down with the positive thoughts.
I can already see that this month is really going to take some work. This isn't like just planning my menu or adding a more minutes to my workout. This is dealing with the mind and honey, the fight is on.
I am going to start reading Joel Osteen's book Becoming a Better You. That is what I want to do...become a better me! I have read part of the book before and then stopped reading it to read something else. I am looking forward to getting back into the book. I know that when I was reading it before, I got lots out of it. It actually gave me the idea to make my little signs of positive affirmations that I have on my motivation wall. I also made a book of affirmations that I got out of the book. It is a spiral book of 3x5 cards. I think I will have to find that and keep adding things to it and then use it everyday to keep my mind positive.
I just had to put a squash on a thought that came up about writing this blog. Boy I have allowed the negative thoughts to run rampant for so long that nothing is off topic for it to attack. I have a huge job this month. I can see that this is going to take a lot of work.
The negative thoughts really try to take us down but we have to stop them in their tracks and turn those thoughts around and make positive ones. We have to be diligent. Don't let any negative thoughts take control. They are so toxic! It doesn't matter how big or small they are. They are all toxic and cause so much damage to out lives and our journey. When those negative thoughts come up, stop them in their tracks and immediately tear them down with positive thoughts and affirmations.
Start your day off with a positive thought. Create a positive theme of the day. When we start our day off on a positive note, it sets the tone of the day.
Here is the song that I chose for today. I think it will be the song of the month!
Much love, positive thoughts and a NEW Attitude!!