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Women Food and God

Sunday, March 03, 2013

That's the title of the book I'm reading by Geneen Roth, copyright 2010. By page 8 I tapped into something core, by page 26 thoughts and beliefs are bubbling up within me like popcorn.

I think I'm going to learn a lot about myself, and my relationship to food.

In particular, why I keep sabotaging myself. I do great, get a streak going and am happy eating the foods I'm preparing, am feeling confident, the scale moves...

...then I go stay with my daughter for a week, and gradually begin to eat for comfort and stress instead of hunger and mindfulness; not that they eat unhealthy, they eat very healthy and low fat, but they are young and can afford some chocolate here, some ice cream there, which I had stopped eating those things but chose to partake, and the slippery slope becomes a fast sled ride...

... then I come home from that and it takes several days to get my head back on track. I guess I feel lonely when I come back to my own home alone and not with family and feeling needed, and instead of turning to a spiritual comfort, I turn to fatty foods and DVD series that keep me engaged and on the couch. Ouch, did I really just write that?

Its the truth that sets you free, and the discomfort and pain of facing the truth and eating for comfort instead that has kept me from my freedom. I'm not ready to write about all the issues bubbling up yet, but I'm grateful they are coming to Light, and awareness, because something inside of me isn't willing to give up. I should stop berating myself for yo-yoing and realize there's a part of me that isn't giving up and continues to endeavor to persevere for good and keeps grabbing that yo-yo endeavoring to get a grip.

And that part of me is deeply one with God. And shouting the truth with an unceasing voice, and keeping me coming back. Thank you God.
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  • CHRISSY-50
    I love - love this book! I have it on audible and listen when ever I need help with keeping my focus, which may be this am :) good luck on your journey of self!
    1815 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/31/2013 9:33:06 AM
    I understand so well about eating for comfort and escaping in the world of movies, etc. instead of being active. I just canceled my Netflix and Hulu as we prepare for our trip, but I really did rely on it for the past several months. I notice when I watch too much tv, it tends to deaden my creativity. But sometimes it's hard to say "no" to easy entertainment...and there's so much available!

    I think it's awesome you're looking in to this issue with honesty and recognizing your weaknesses. I think it's perfectionism that sometimes keeps us in these cycles. But understanding can help us deal with these weaknesses, as well as relying on God to make us strong when we are weak. Thank you for sharing with us.
    1897 days ago
    Thanks for stopping by my page. I had a nice swim again today, and am feeling infinitely better today.

    Your hot pool sounds lovely, hope you got there today and enjoyed it.

    I do understand your eating and watching tv for comfort. I am very good at that myself. Working on trying to find better uses of my time. When I am watching tv, etc, I do try to have my hands busy, crocheting, reading the paper etc. It works sometimes, now I am working on making it work more often!

    You book sounds very enlightening. Enjoy.

    1904 days ago
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