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Saturday, March 02, 2013

So far, today has been what I will call "useless", except for it's not. I have an awfully hard time with "me" time without feeling like a selfish lout. And I did wake up feeling like I'd been hit with bricks. Why oh why, I ask you, did I challenge my sixth graders to a high kick contest(tae kwan do style) if they finished all their work? Why did I choose to win? Why did I agree to (and yes beat -- but they ARE in 6th grade) all of them in arm wrestling? Is this how I fight my "age issues"? Is this what 53 means, hurting like $%^&*!!

It took HOURS today to become motivated and MOVE today and God Bless Coach Nicole. She helps me move (when I can keep up) and somehow her voice tells me it's ok if I can't do ALL the reps, though I do try.

I didn't lose any weight this week. I knew it when I ate soup one too many times (I have tough times with salt) and went with frozen foods vs fresh. Things get so hectic that I rarely cook during the school year (well I WOULD but my husband likes to eat before 9pm -- go figure) and he's still "getting with the program" regarding weight loss (**sigh**). But I'm still workin' this program and DETERMINED to be successful.

I was moved by Sharon10002's recent blog "Loving Yourself: My Body Pledge of Allegiance". She spoke to my heart and I cried for all the times I've misused and abused this body of mine through crazy over exercising and binge eating. She helped me remember what I once knew: we are beings living from the inside out. When I fall into what our culture, my family of origin, and (most importantly) this inner exacting parent judges and criticizes and says is "correct", I MUST stop and breathe and remember what is true. Thank you Sharon! You speak truth to power, the inner power inside all of us!!

Well, I hope this wasn't the strangest ramble you've ever seen but it was indeed a ramble. Thanks for listening. I do feel better than earlier. Hope y'all have an awesome weekend! Let's keep on Sparkin' and hope to talk to you again, real soon!

"Ten mucho cuidado" means "take good care". All the best!
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    I can't even begin to count all the times I have beaten myself up, but over the years I have learned it is okay to fall the thing is to not stay down but to get back up that is the most important. Your blog was not a ramble it is how you felt and writing down how we feel helps. I know you can do it and I know you WILL get there, one day at a time. emoticon
    1927 days ago
    Hey we all beat ourselves up sometime but no one is perfect. Just take it step by step so you don't get overwhelmed. If you feel down, take a walk..It usually helps clear your mind.
    I haven't done much this week because I am sick but as soon as I get better then I will be back at it.
    Give yourself a break.
    1931 days ago
    You can do this...you know what to do!
    Vent all you want here....it's safe.
    Have a terrific Sunday!
    1932 days ago
    It's teacher syndrome. Not doing anything oddly becomes our down times. I've changed a few of those urges by: 1.) packing a gym bag the night before and going on my way home (once i'm home nothing will happen) and 2.) making Sundays mine. I start with some SP browsing, then have breakfast, head to the gym, stop at the farmer's market and load up on FRESH veggies/fruits, and come home to grade (albeit sporadically).

    I've found that fresh baggies really are so much more satisfying. Try something simple like on Sunday, weighing out 3 (or 6) ounces of baby carrots and putting 3 (or 6) ounces of each in five separate ziplocs. bring them to work on Monday and now you have a guaranteed healthy snack everyday that week. Plus the crunching is very satisfying.

    You helped me and so I hope to help you... buenos suerte!
    1932 days ago
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    You did it! You got up and started moving..good for you!. emoticon emoticon
    1933 days ago
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