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Little update

Saturday, March 02, 2013

It has been a while since I made a blog - or even posted much, altho' I am posting on the message boards every day, it isn't anywhere near as much as I usually did. I find that my concentration isn't as great as it was, and it was never that great anyway. I guess that the affects of my husband's death are still with me. Certainly at night. I am like a little child fighting against going to bed, even tho' I am really tired. Then most of the time it takes for ever to actually get to sleep. THEN when I get to sleep, the dreams start. As a result I am often really tired during the day.

I know it seems crazy but I have been playing The Rolling Stones occasionally for my hubby. He really LOVED them. I was never that fussed on them altho' I didn't mind them. His ashes are just above the stereo so he gets the full benefit. (I did say it seems crazy :-)

At the same time I have had to take my Mum and Stepfather to the Dr quite a bit because they had both been unwell. Mum is now on medication for the problem and is feeling hugely better. The running around after them (35 k's each way) leaves me feeling even more tired, but I certainly don't let them know that. It would make them feel awful, and not call on me when they need me. There isn't any other family around to do this for them.

I have been keeping an eye on my nutrition and am not letting that slip. It is too easy to fall off the wagon and not get back up. Today I went to The Warehouse (NZ's 'affordable everything' shop) to have a look at a treadmill which is a new model. As an opening special it is on for $600 - it will normally be $1200. When our Accident Compensation Corpn. put one into my home for 3-4 months while I was doing rehab after a bad accident, I used it every day, and was quite miffed when they took it away. I decided that IF this one doesn't cause me any pain or discomfort, then I am going to get it as my one treat from the little bit of money left over from hubby's Life Insurance. The other one I tried but didn't get (couple weeks ago) caused my hip to start burning within a couple minutes (I tried it in the shop) It is a reclining one which can be adjusted, but not to flat. I can't manage inclines. It was also a magnetic one so took more strength to get it going. This one I am hopefully getting is an electric one and it a much better quality one. They didn't have one in store, so they have ordered it in for me to try. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I don't know how much longer my grandson will be living with me (week-days) and when he finally flies the nest, I will have 1/2 the groceries and 1/2 the laundry for my walks, and with winter coming, will need to do something. I don't walk outside very much, however having said that, today I took my little dog with me to The Warehouse, and after we both went for a 12 minute walk in the park - a really nice change for the both of us, and the bonus was it wasn't as hot as it has been of late.

I have been getting my roof re-painted. It was getting quite 'thread-bare' and showing signs of surface rust in a couple places. The painter has almost finished that part, but will have a couple other parts to paint, to help protect it from the weather.

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    1908 days ago
    Kris, so good to hear from you again. I want you to know I think of you often and picture you and your house. Of course we are hoping now that March is here,it will quit snowing and spring will show up.... just as you are going into fall and winter. Sending the light and love of the universe your way.
    1909 days ago
    Hugs. Thanks for the update.
    1910 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
    emoticon That is great that you are taking steps to take care of yourself and continue to get stronger. That is wonderful that you play emoticon as it can be very therapeutic.
    1910 days ago
    You are doing great despite all that life has thrown at you. My thoughts and prayers continue for you.
    1910 days ago
    Thank you for taking the time to notice my comment and friend me on SP when you are dealing with so much in your life. I am sorry that you are on such a difficult road now. It sounds like your hubby is very much with you in spirit!

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    I hope the treadmill will work for you. Take care of yourself, and know how 'SPECIAL' you are to us all.

    1910 days ago
  • LINDA!
    It is so great that in spite of all that has are still staying on track with nutrition. emoticon
    1911 days ago
    Lots of good progress there, Kris! I remember what it was like to be concerned for my parents' health, too; that can be stressful at times, generating occasional bouts of worry and concern, I know - lots of strength to you! You sound terrific, though...and who doesn't love a nice little dose of the Rolling Stones now and then? I sure do! All the best!
    1911 days ago
    Kris, I am glad to see you posting again. I cannot
    start to imagine what you are going through. It
    is good that your grandsons are still with you.
    Great that you took your dog for a little walk.
    I think about you often. Look after yourself and
    I hope you get your treadmill soon. Happy March.
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    1911 days ago
    I'm glad you had the energy and concentration to write this today. That you have begun to post more than you have since your husband's death must indicate that you're making strides in recovering from the blow. It sounds as though you're making efforts to take better care, excellent news, without berating yourself for having slipped, also excellent. You know you have friends here who will do anything and everything in their (our) power to help.
    1911 days ago
    Do what you feel is comfortable NOT what you think we want you to do. DO NOT feel obligated my dear.
    1911 days ago
    great you ate looking after yourself hugs
    1911 days ago
    It's so great that you're taking care of yourself and such a periodically offering a fun tribute to your husband!
    1911 days ago
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