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Choose Your Hard

Thursday, February 28, 2013

On July 21, 2011, I stepped on the scale and saw the magical numbers 1-6-0. Since than, I have worked to maintain the scale at 160. Like many other people, I thought losing weight was the hard part and maintenance was a cake walk.

I am sure you have seen this poster before...

It is so true.

Being overweight and unhappy with yourself is hard. For me, I found when I was at my highest weight, my self esteem was the lowest. With low self esteem you doubt every move you make and never trust your own intuition.

Losing weight is hard. You have to keep pushing even if you are putting in 100%. And, if you stumble a little back, you have to get back on the horse and keep trying even if your friends and family are pushing you toward your old habits.

Maintaining is hard. You have to want your lifestyle even if there are no rewards. The rewards in my weight loss journey were getting compliments about my progress. That felt good. Now it's old news that I have lost 100 pounds. And, sometimes it like people have forgotten who I was in the beginning. I am still that person. I still love cupcakes and cookies. In this stage, I am finding it hard to continue to say no to all the things I have denied myself during the three years of losing weight loss.

I haven't weighed myself in almost a week. Last time, I was 172.2. I really do not think I want to see a number higher than that. I really need to turn this around and I want to do it before my anniversary date... July 21st. Ironically, I have 21 weeks to do it. It'd be awesome if I could be close to 150. Honestly, I am not sure if that is possible for me as I am too scared. Actually, scratch that goal. Let's go with a different goal. A less overwhelming goal.

By July 21st, I want to get back to who I was before my internship.
emoticon I want to eat clean. I want to eat almost no junk food.
emoticon I want to work out everyday with an "off" day before rare. Not the other way around.
emoticon I want to be training for a half marathon.
emoticon I want to be proud of myself and my goals that I am working toward.

If you are losing weight, remember everyone stumbles. Even the ones in their maintenance stage. If you are in the maintenance stage, keep up the great work!
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    You're right, all of the choices are hard. And, yes, maintaining is a beast! I completely agree about losing the consistent rewards (the slew of compliments that come during and for a while after losing a significant amount of weight). But, it's still so worth it (losing/maintaining). We just need to rely on ourselves a little more for the compliments once they scale down externally.
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  • KITT52
    I sure agree...I have been in the maintaining mode for over 3 years...I have gained a bit back, and have taken it off again...seems me and 10 pounds are on a roller coaster...I am on the down swing again....

    just.. emoticon can do it, but it is hard work....
    1882 days ago
    Maintenance is definitely hard; that's why so few people are able to maintain their weight loss for the long term. Don't let that scare you, though, let it motivate you to keep going. You can do this. Take it one step at a time and just keep pushing forward.
    1882 days ago
    Even in your struggles... no, ESPECIALLY in your struggles, you are so motivating to the rest of us.

    You got this.
    1882 days ago
    Absolutely agree 100%. Maintenance seemed like the easy part, but it's just as hard as losing the weight. Just with different hard things. Great blog!
    1882 days ago
    You go, Savannah! You can do this. You are sooooooo right when you say you have to choose your hard. NOT easy . . . it IS hard! But the deal is, together we can do it. Right!?!

    HUGS Hold that head up high. You're on the path, sweetie. THAT'S the way to do it.
    1882 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    Excellent blog.

    I agree, the cheering on was a help, albeit superficial, heck, vain even... but who cared when it helped?

    I need to knuckle down as well. We got this!
    1882 days ago
    be good to you
    1882 days ago
    You've got this!!! emoticon
    1882 days ago
    Big hugs! Yep. Maintenance is a lot trickier than I ever imagined! But you can do this! You've set some good, solid, OBTAINABLE goals, and you know that's half the battle!

    Be good to yourself, you are worth every minute you spend on you!
    1882 days ago
    You can do it! emoticon
    1882 days ago
    emoticon You can do it! 100 pounds gone, wow, I can only imagine the joy. Well done!
    1882 days ago
    Those first two, with the addition of keeping portion sizes reasonable, are my only goals. They're the only ones I want. It's when other ones start clogging my head that I start getting scared. You can do it.
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