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Monday, February 25, 2013

My accountability stinks. I've decided I'm going to make my nutrition and fitness trackers public. We'll see how long it lasts. Making them public is not an invitation for public commentary, but a method of making myself accountable. Do I really want all you hard working, dedicated souls to see that I ate two cheeseburgers (from two totally different restaurants), a cup of chili and a Baskin Robbins ice cream cone for lunch? No. I absolutely don't. So, why am I posting it? Because maybe if I know it's visible, I won't eat the stuff.

Today was a terrible bingey day. Yesterday ended up being a terrible bingey day too. I've been extremely dedicated for the past couple of weeks with no progress and my impatient nature got the best of me. Oh, the pressure! I've just gotta have a little freedom here, folks. (Somebody smack me in the forehead before I go completely off the deep end.) SEXBOBOMB--You know what I'm talking about. That little anti-authoritarian witch inside won the last two rounds, but I've got her back in cuffs.

As I start into this new public phase, you should know that not all of the prior days' tracking is accurate. For instance, I did not log all of Sunday's food. I mean seriously, how do you track a chocolate tasting party? But starting today, it's ON! I'm laying it all out there. I'm going to track everything--to the best of my ability. I'm also going to be fooling around with my calorie range a bit over the next couple of weeks. 1400-1500 wasn't cutting it. I'm not sure if it was the extra exercise I was doing or if my body has readjusted to a lower range.

Please send any extra positive vibes you may have laying around.

P.S. I cannot SERIOUSLY believe my stomach is growling right now. Are you KIDDING me????
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    you can do this! i hope this works for you making it public.
    We all have our days u are not alone the trick is just less of those days. March is going to be a great month for all of us!
    you can do it!!

    1931 days ago
    I know what you mean about tracking everything! You think a little bit more before you put something in your mouth. I have not been tracking much over the last several months. I need to start again when the challenge begins. I do find that I feel hungry when I do not have enough protein. People will look at your tracker for you if you want feedback. I had some folks do that when I first started and it was helpful. Know that we are all pulling for you! emoticon
    1936 days ago
    I think that public tracking of your food is a great idea, not for judgement, but for DATA. You said that you are hungry right now--- what was the last thing you ate? If you notice a trend, (for example: every day at 3pm I'm STARVING-- and I eat a chocolate covered frozen banana with peanuts every day at 2.... so maybe I need to add more protein to that meal? Or a salad to load up on fiber?)

    The biggest, and most important thing in all of this: TRACK ALL OF IT. EVERY SINGLE BITE.

    I had a day way back (maybe last summer) when I went to mcd's and got a fish fillet and a large fry. Then I went to culvers and got a caramel custard shake with some more fries. Then I got some curly fries from arby's and a hershey's pie thing. This was all on the same car trip, in probably less than one hour.

    I tracked it. every bite, all 6000 calories of that day. And you know what? I have that, in my database now , to reflect on-- what I ate the day before, where I was at in my head blog-wise, what kinds of exercise I had been doing, all of it. That kind of information is super helpful...

    You won't be able to benefit from your own trends until you honestly post all of it.

    Things I've learned about me from this, things that aren't necessarily "all people" but are totally para things:

    Cereal: I can only eat cereal after I've been up for at least 5 hours, or later. If I eat cereal in the morning, I feel super hungry bingey all day and either blow my calories or am crabby all day.

    PMS: I blow my calories to sh*t at least once every pms-- and if I don't, it seriously effs up my moods and ability to function. One blowout day, and I do okay. It tends not to be a big loss week, but I do stay sane.

    There are other things, but I've talked too much already.

    Suffice to say: if you feel shame about it, that's you. Here in spark, we don't judge. We've all been there-- looking at an empty pie tin, or a mound of hershey's kisses wrappers. If you feel shame, it's yours to own and deal with, but it's not spark that is judging. I look at blow out days now with a sense of curiosity-- how can I solve this mystery? Not with shame.

    I'm excited for this new stage!
    1936 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Trying your best is all you can ask for. I hope that the new plan of making it public helps to keep you in line. Good luck with the new plan! Sending positive vibes your way!
    1937 days ago
    Sometimes we just gotta own it and move on, like you're doing! And honestly, I think the Spark trackers need a little fudging to find out what is right for you, because I played with mine a bit before I found what my body seemed to agree to.

    Might be a good time to find some new snack "alternatives" too -- if I can find some healthier tasties I love, I can usually (but not always!) stay away from the bad stuff. My favorite right now: chop up an orange, add a 1/2c vanilla nonfat greek yogurt, and add about 1T mini chocolate chips. Mix it up, and it's a nice dessert, but it boasts a piece of fruit and protein/calcium from the yogurt! Could be better, but it's better than some things I might be tempted by!
    1937 days ago
    I hate it when I feel like I just can't stop stuffing my face, but I also think that I hate the feeling of having a "food baby" even more! I know you'll pick it back up and do great!
    1937 days ago
    Ppl actually look at each other's trackers?
    I made mine public, just for the mental trick of knowing I'm not eating in a closet, but then never would imagaine anyone would care to look. Especially not COMMENT on them! Ppl do that?

    Oh, well. To each his own.

    I think you're doing the right thing, b/c you are thinking it through and then acting upon your conclusion. Whatever works for you, right on!
    1937 days ago
  • -AMANDA79-
    I post my meal plan and workouts for the week and then report back on whether I followed. I don't want to have to say that I didn't follow. Works like a charm!!

    Good luck! emoticon
    1938 days ago
    We are here for you. No judgement just encouragment. (Trust me if I made my eating public for the last 3 days there would be massive shock and awe. emoticon ) Rock it woman. You can do this! emoticon
    1938 days ago
  • LISAMG1220
    This sounds like a solid plan! Way to go. I named my last tracker I turned in to my Y class....the good, bad and ugly tracker. Because I logged EVERYTHING.... I wanted to be completely honest with it. It was way ugly but I now have an idea of where I need to change. We got this sister! :)
    1938 days ago
    Tracking things is a bit dicey, I know. But be sure to track everything, even the tiniest Hershey's Kiss. It was an eye opener for me!

    Best wishes in your plans and hopes!
    1938 days ago
  • SHOES17
    When I was exercising my tush off 1400 wasn't cutting it for me. I was living a very hungry life and I bumped it up to 1600 to 1700 calories and I started losing. Right now I am walking between 1 to 3 miles a day. That is pretty much the some of it. My goal is for 1400-1500. I need to make some changes. What I am doing now isnt working. I started eating popcorn again and I have puffed up like a toad. I think I am mildly allergic to popcorn or the preservatives. In the last couple of days I am have replaced cake and cookies with fruit. The sugar change has been a bear... well a headache for sure. I went through the fruit section the other day like a mad woman. I came home with grapes (red,green, seedless, with seeds) apples ( 3 kinds I think), plums, etc. I was rewarded! I got a coupon for a dollar off on my next produce purchase! Not sure how to find your food and exercise... but I am here to cheer you on. Love reading about the classes you attend!! emoticon
    1938 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/25/2013 7:48:34 PM
    I've been super bingey (it's a word!) for the last 3 weeks. Today is day 1, again... I had my tracker public for a while until I got unsolicited advice. I was thinking about making it public again. Hang in there mama, you'll get it together.
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    1938 days ago
  • PITA_1988
    Please don't beat yourself up over this. We're all human. Just because you ran one stop sign doesn't mean you have to break every traffic law from now on. Start now, and go forward. And remember, you can always give me a call if you're tempted and need someone to talk you down.
    1938 days ago
    You want to feel better about your tracker? Go look at mine from this past weekend, lol. It's like an episode of watch the show and think "Hey maybe my house is cleaner than I thought!"

    Sending positive thoughts your way. I hope these adjustments help!
    1938 days ago
    I so understand where you're at right now. I've been exercising like a fiend, but my eating is honestly out of control. I ate three candy bars and a cookie last night while watching movies. So stupid! But I'm back in the saddle today and trying my best.
    1938 days ago
  • BIGDOG18
    1938 days ago
  • IDGET16
    Good luck with your new plan! emoticon
    1938 days ago
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