Try this again
Monday, February 25, 2013
Well I am back here to try this whole change your life thing again... Don't really know why because I was happy with who I was. I may have been 450 pounds but I was happy. Now I am 410 and miserable. The only positive to come out of this was I get to swim more now, but only because my dad is on my back about exercising and losing weight. I know that he wants this more than I do. I just can't seem to want it more. Yeah I know I will be healthier and be able to fly in a plane and ride a train and rides at the fair and all that happy crap. But I just don't know. I have been working hard despite my hang ups about it. I work out every day that I am not working. I would work out on the days I do work too but that is just not aloud. My dad is very controlling, and I work for him. I enjoy swimming. Water is my thing. I tried working out on the elliptical (stair stepper combined with treadmill) but I must have done something wrong because that was a week ago and my knee still hurts from it. It has been getting better, but its prevented me from walking as much as I was. Sigh Maybe things will get better once I am under 400 pounds. I am hoping that I will be down to that by the 11th of March. Oh well.
Ps getting 60 grams of protein a day is very near impossible for me! UGH!