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Monday, February 25, 2013

I haven't blogged for a couple months and thought it was about time I did. So, I'm kind of stuck. Stuck. I can't seem to push myself, even slightly, not for my health anyway. I push myself for work - I feel obligated to do a good job, work hard, but beyond that I'm just blah.
It seems my default response to a problem is just sit back and do nothing. They say, for an animal, when cornered it is either fight or flight... my response is to just take it. Brace and take it. Don't fight or run, but just nothing.
I want to lose weight, but I'm not making an effort to do anything about this. It's like I want things in the abstract, but not in reality. I don't want to do the things that it takes to get those things. I don't know how to change this. It's so a part of who I am - this doing nothing. I'm not giving up - I do come to spark and get points.
My exercise comes primarily from work - I walk 8,000-10,000 steps a day there and am stocking and cleaning constantly there. It's not work that stops me from exercising at home - like it's not that I'm so tired from work that I can't do something at home. It's that I don't. Motivation just isn't there.
This has been a battle for me for a while - it plays into my depression and nothing seems to change it. It's like doing nothing is just who I am. How do you change who you are?
I'm not giving up, I just can't seem to figure out a way to adjust. I think, just DO IT - except I don't. I just don't.
This default response of doing nothing doesn't work and yet, it's my response regularly.
I just wanted to put this out there.
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    I can only share what works for me. I don't rely on motivation. I just do it regardless. Trust me, some days it is like pulling teeth. Hang in there. emoticon
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    1881 days ago
  • AMY-MIMI77
    Always remember gotta crawl before walk and put one pant leg on at a time;
    Any little bit you do is better than that you don't do
    Keep pushing
    1882 days ago
    It sounds like you're very active at work...wouldn't that count for some fitness minutes. Exercise is not just done at the gym. Maybe if you feel more positive about the activity (walking, lifting, etc) you're are currently doing during the day...it would make you feel like you are accomplishing something and spur you on to do more. Try to think of something active that you love to do (i.e. I love to hike at National, State or Regional Parks - I planned a hiking trip with my grown kids to the Redwoods & hiked up and down hills for 90 minutes then another 50 min on the valley floor just cause it was so beautiful...planning with the kids meant I couldn't worm my way out of it). Remember, the only way we remain the way we are now...is to give up & accept the status quo. Make an active play date with a friend and follow through whether you want to or not. Don't give yourself permission to back out. Hope this helps. I've certainly been there...next time you can spur me to get out & move.
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    Bev, the Sparkling Firecracker!
    1882 days ago
    Aww! Big hugs for you - I know when things get like this, I feel exactly like you. Always remember, this weather can really do bad things to depression levels. Is there anyone you can work out with? A free run club or workout program you can join? I think sometimes being with other people makes it much easier than worrying about my own motivation levels.
    1882 days ago
    What is being done to treat your depression? Two of my middle-aged step children are on medication. A third has seasonal affective disorder and does full spectrum light therapy. These things have made a huge difference in their lives! Perhaps your "depression" is not actually depression any more. Have you had a checkup that includes a thyroid level test?
    Whatever is happening - you've come to the right place for support. Whatever you need, please post about it. Some one will have an answer for you.
    1882 days ago
    Why don't you physically set things up so that you can succeed. For instance, pack your gym clothes to work. After work, change into them and then head to the gym as if it is another job. Treat it as such and don't think too hard about it. It is just somewhere you need to go.

    If you contemplate exercise too much there is always an excuse not to do it. It is not just for weight that you exercise. Think of your heart, lungs and longevity. Ironically, if you exercise more it often will help with depression. It is certainly worth trying.

    If you don't have time to do exercise after work. Try setting things up in the morning even if you have to sleep in your workout outfit. Get up and do your thing then go to work. It is great to get it in before the day begins. Don't worry about being tired at work because you will probably have quite a bit of energy after working out.

    In other words, make exercise like a routine, like you do successfully for work. It can be as simple as that. I hope this helps. emoticon

    Just start slowly maybe try this once a week at first. You have already taken the first step by writing the blog.
    1882 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/25/2013 10:34:06 AM
    One step at a time. You can do this.
    1882 days ago
    I agree with everyone's advice. Pick one thing and then add to it as your "want to" gains some momentum. You can do it!
    1882 days ago
    What a heartfelt blog about your feelings! That's a start towards changing! Take small steps that are achievable, park father away from work to get even more steps in, make sure you are drinking 8 glasses of water. Try jogging in place during a commercial while watching TV. Small steps will add up and maybe eventually ignite your spark to do more. You, my diamond friend, are worth polishing up to a sparkling diamond. Diamonds do not stark off sparkly they take some work. Maybe you need to keep trying different activities to you find the one that makes you want to continue it. I believe in you and you are not alone!
    1882 days ago
    Start small, and build from there. Even if you're tired after a day of work, try setting a timer when you get home from work, and exercise until the timer goes off. Start off with a low number...and build from there. Remember, you are worth the effort!
    1882 days ago
    You're not alone! Keep at it...something will click!
    1882 days ago
    Don't give up.......start with small steps....pick one thing to do each day and always do it......take a little walk during lunch with a co-worker. I find having someone to do things with and to talk to is easier. It also gives you something to look forward to. Just start with baby steps a day at a time and you will get there. emoticon emoticon
    1882 days ago
  • PUDDLE13
    Hey I get how you feel. I get exactly the same sometimes.
    Depression is difficult. My partner suffers terribly with it and its a hard thing to overcome. He's working on doing one thing a day at the moment. It helps him because he doesn't get sad that he hasn't done things or things aren't getting done and seeing what he has done helps to break the cycle.

    For myself, making big lifestyle changes didn't work for me. So I've been making little ones - not using lifts, taking a walk on my lunch break, drinking more water...then it doesn't feel like i am EXERCISING or DIETING. I've lost about 6 lbs doing things this way. Its not much but its the most I have consistently lost over a 2 month period. I also know that for me I have to get up early and exercise because if I try to do it when I get home from work I never will.

    You'll find out what works for you. Hang in there!
    1882 days ago
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