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Not Ready for Goodbye

Monday, February 25, 2013

I know it's 12:10 in the morning and that I should probably be asleep right now, but how can I knowing that the love of my life, my very heart, is being deployed to a country on the other side of the world!?! I can't help but think of all I'll miss: the hugs, the laughs, the kisses, the annoying little things he does... How do I sleep knowing he will be out there, working for the sake of our country, and me being here worried about his very safety!?! I know where he is going is not a terrible area to be in, but when there's not a 100% guarantee of anything... it gets me incredibly nervous. Really all I want to do right now is take a day tomorrow, and grab a giant tub of triple fudge brownie ice cream, a couple Coca-Colas, and have a giant cry fest. But I can't do that. 1. Because that is obviously very bad for me and 2. because I need to work and go to class so I can pay bills and graduate. Right now I'm finding myself having to be strong... when I just don't feel like being strong. I'm going to miss him like crazy. But at least I get to look forward to that day when we join our lives together, in the presence of God and witnesses, for the rest of our lives. It's all I really have to hold onto right now, because the rest of me is falling apart! I knew what I signed on for when I said yes... I just forgot how hard it was really going to be!


"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God" ~2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (ESV)
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    god will take care of him and you.
    it seems i had to have this slapped in my face last night but here goes.
    calm down.
    stressing out will not change it.
    whatever happens will happen.
    ive been thru a deployment with someone i love.
    it sucked. he was hurt, almost died, BUT he didnt, god was with him.
    and since your guy is going to be in a safe place. its going to ALL be ok.
    let in and give your stress and troubles to God. he will be there.
    be faithful to your guy in all ways, especially communications. he will need your strength now more than ever.

    1913 days ago
    Saying goodbye is difficult, heart-wrenching, and I don't envy you. But the times we live in, with Skype and cheap phone calls, will hopefully make it a bit easier to take. And your faith in God to bring you two back together again will give you strength. God bless you both.


    And when you feel like eating a big tub of ice cream (sounds really yummy! emoticon ) maybe try exercising instead, releasing some endorphins will lift your spirits.
    1913 days ago
    By reading your blog I can tell just how much you love him. You have to hold strong in that and realize God will keep him safe. Deployments are always hard. Just take it one day at a time and he will back before you know it. While he is gone we will all be here to support you. emoticon
    1913 days ago
    I know it is hard, but, put your faith in that prayer and allow God to give you comfort and keep praying that God will take care of him and bring him home safe. Keep dreaming of that special day! emoticon
    1913 days ago
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