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Do you have the guts???

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Do you have the true grit that it takes to step on the dreaded scale???? emoticon

Well. I do. I will step on the monstor tomorrow.

I haven't been feeling well. My insides have been tied in knots for no obvious reason. Normally, I can point to something that I have been eating. This time, I don't know why. sigh. That reminds me I need to take some magnesium.

I am finally back at my workouts. I've been listening to Sandra Ahten's Reasonable Diet for motivation, especially the three episodes titled 'I'm not giving up on myself.' I feel as though I have been giving up for a while now, and I'm not interested in continuing down this path. I don't want to give up on myself.

I have been listening to some spiritual podcasts. I've been looking for meaning in my life. I don't have what might be considered a conventionally successful life. I'm not married, I don't have any children, I live with my parents, I'm coming up on my 35th birthday. I worked incredibly hard in my twenties toward an end that I achieved and I discovered that I don't really like Hollyweird, so I came home. I went to work for myself, started my own business, and the economy took a nose dive. (Have we hit bottom yet?) My health took a nose dive, I was terribly ill for a couple of years. I have through luck, research, intelligence, and tenacity, figured a way out of most of it. I have not yet discovered the next chapter in my weight loss journey. That is the next thing. The one thing that I know for sure is that without weighing in, without a food journal, and without being dedicated to living, none of it works. I get sicker, I get heavier, I get more and more depressed.


I'm not giving up on myself.
I'm not giving up on myself.
I'm not giving up on myself.

~Say it with me now~

I'm not giving up on myself.
I'm not giving up on myself.
I'm not giving up on myself. emoticon

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    Tenacity usually pays off.
    1943 days ago
    I'm not giving up on myself either. I plan on having a really great Spring and I know you will as well.
    1943 days ago
  • EWL978
    I don't get on the scale at home.... I have a doctor's appointment on March 18th. That's three months from my last visit and I'll get on his scale and we'll both take a peek!! I know that I've lost because I've had to buy new undies and new slacks and new tees... when things are so big that they look bad, it's a good thing!!

    So, don't worry....just do it....we' here for you.

    1944 days ago
    Good luck tomorrow.
    1944 days ago
    Thank you. I'm not giving up on myself either!!!!
    1944 days ago
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