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Sabotage of Pain

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Phew! Patooey! Umph! Blah.

Bad night.
Sometimes I feel like a human barometer - feeling pending storms churn inside, and pulling my muscles and bones, and making my skin ultra-sensitive.

It is like my whole body has a headache.
I put on soft clothes - has to be silky, or pure cotton, or just soft, not bumpy, nubby, tight, confining.
If I am cold on top of it, it can be worse.
I heat up my beanie bags in the microwave, and set them on my knees, ankles, and the cat lays down in the middle between my knees, on my lap emitting his heat and kitty healing to me.

I couldn't sleep due to the sabotage of pain. Medication and TENS unit took a long time to affect it so that my body calmed down. Try 4:30 a.m. when my husband was coming in from work. Then I fell asleep finally, in my chair, with my poor cat churned about by my painful restlessness, his trying to ease my discomfort by his warmth. When I moved to the bedroom, the cat follows, and settles in by my legs, stretching out his warmth and comfort to me.

For the moment, I have put off my ten minutes of exercise - I WILL do it later. I have gone up and down the stairs once already. I did a few light housework chores. I took a hot shower, and that eased a great deal of my discomfort this morning. I had a light breakfast - gluten free raisin toast, and a cup of mocha. And sat with my Bible and studied, since my body sabotaged my efforts to get to services this morning.

At the moment I feel better than I did through the night, though the pain is still on the edge.

Pain is my biggest enemy when I try to physically attack increasing fitness activities. I do have to take it day by day, moment by moment. I need to not sabotage yesterday's efforts by over eating or binge eating today. I will not.

When I hurt, I have to take something, usually with food.
Then I can't move, because it hurts, and I have to delay the day's fitness routine.

This is an enemy that sometimes is definitely in check, and other days it ramps up an attack. On top of the injuries, recoveries, etc. I wonder if there is fibromyalgia? I also notice that at the times I have skin breakouts on my face, I frequently have an intensity of back pain. Not always, just some of the time.

Too much introspection.
Back to the day at hand.
Current Plan - Do ten minutes of activity - perhaps from my chair, on the wall, and go up and down stairs at least one more time.

At least I know my enemy. Working at Thwarting it. One day at a time.
Currently retreating from the attack.
Keep on moving. One step at a time.
Drink my water.
Mind what I put in my mouth.
Stay positive.

You know what that means?
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  • GINA180847
    You poor lady! I slept well but my poor husband is like you.
    1912 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Seems to me like your Dr.'s should be taking better steps to control your pain. Are you seeing a pain specialist? If not, I think its way overdue. When it interferes this much in your basic life, it really needs to be looked after. My family Dr. is trying to do all she can, but if she can't help, she will be quick to refer me to a pain clinic. She wrote to my rheumy I need pain management. I hope this is a big clue to her that the RA meds I have been on for years and years may no longer be effective..
    Be proactive in your care. The squeaky wheel gets the grease. Say nothing and nothing gets done.
    Hope you feel better tomorrow
    1913 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    I am so sorry the weather is giving you fits. My DH can relate. We were up with you last evening-he finally got some fitful sleep about 2 am and I fell asleep about 4 as I finally decided he was going to sleep.
    Praying things are better for you now.
    1913 days ago
    This fall and winter have wrecked havoc on my tendinitis - I fully understand what you are going through! But, Spark People has been helping this too - with less weight!
    1913 days ago
    I know what you mean about being a "human barometer"; I feel weather changes too with my pain issues, and often the weather is a trigger for my migraine and sinus headaches.
    1913 days ago
    I guess that means you have to take it one step at a time.
    Only way to do it. Rest when you can and then try a few minutes of exercise.Even a few minutes in the chair. Every minute adds up. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1913 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/24/2013 4:00:10 PM
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