Tell the truth, you sometimes have absolutely NO motivation.
I know I didn't this past week. But, with my Mother in the hospital, I could have cared less if all I had was Mt. Dews or Mt. Dew Speedway Freezes. Yep, that's what I had with the exception of 1 day that I had a Subway club sandwich. While she was in the hospital, I wasn't hungry. Plus, I figured those high calorie/high sugar drinks would tell my body I wasn't starving it.
So when today's weigh in came, I wasn't sure what I would see.
I had lost 1 pound. Okay, I'll admit I wasn't thrilled. I mean, I was glad I hadn't gained. But, 1 pound, seriously? But, I'll take it, gladly!
I'm planning my parent's 50th wedding anniversary party.
and believe me, I'm stressed 24/7! Will she become ill again and miss the party? My brother might get yet another bowel obstruction and be hospitalized. Will there be more people show up than not? Shoot, I know worry gets me nowhere except wrinkles and heartburn!
I guess the thing that I'm stressing over the most is whether or not I will lose maybe another 10lbs by the party.
I know it's THEIR day of celebration. But, my family and friends know me only as FAT. And when they walk in, I want it to be a WOW! moment when they see me. I guess I'm being selfish, but they only know me as fat. Yes, I'll still be fat but not AS FAT. Of course, they won't know all the sweat and tears that is ongoing to lose this weight. They won't know that one of my motivations is
or that I fight a daily battle with my scale. . .
I guess I shouldn't care what they think, but I do. That's one of my faults. I care what people think about me. Of course, there are some people I don't a rats patooey what they think about me.
So, now that Mother is out of the hospital and I didn't gain weight during this past week but did lose 1lb,
Yes, join me. I need you kicking my patooey! Oh, and I dropped my YMCA form into the mail so hopefully within this next week, I'll find out what the fee will be, and will begin another new trek along my journey.
So whenever you are feeling like your journey is impossible, just remember