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Fat Girl

Friday, February 22, 2013

Today I feel like I am still the Fat Girl. Like no matter how skinny I get, there will always be that Fat Girl inside me screaming eat the cake, eat some toast, eat a biscuit, eat another biscuit, it's just one, I want ice cream, chips and cake and chocolate and MARSHMALLOWS AND SNICKERS AND PEANUT BUTTER AND BROWNIES AND CHEESE!!

Every time I see an advert for food, or a wrapper, or someone mentions something they ate, I instantly want it.

Tonight I've had at least 3 servings of spaghetti bolognese, fruit salad, ice cream and a snickers. Then on the way home we took a detour to an ice cream parlour and I got two more scoops.

Now I want toast.

How do you resist such a constant onslaught of cravings? I don't have the strength to say no every single second of every single day of the rest of my life. I can't do it.
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    Oh, darlin'!! Catching up on posts and just saw this. But AFTER I was your "I Well and Truly Did It!"

    So, you have self corrected it seems.

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    1908 days ago
    You can do it. It is okay to stumble sometimes. It makes one human. Cravings are normal. Just remember it will be worth it in the end. Don't beat yourself over every little stumble or it is easier to give up. If your feel a really bad craving for ice cream then have some. Afterwards go out for a walk or something active to get your mind off the craving and to burn a few extra calories.
    1909 days ago
  • PKBOO3
    I know the feeling. My only answer is to find good but healthy. Hey! How about an apple with peanut butter? Or try triscuits with mozzarella cheese sticks & mushrooms (a mini-pizza). My husband loves air-popped popcorn with canola or olive oil spray.
    1915 days ago
    Tbh, if I have such a craving I give in... And I enjoy it like there is no tomorrow... But the next day I'm back on track and I start my "Angel Days". During these days I'm extra careful (staying to my lowest range) because I know that I overate and I have to get back on track. But I enjoy my "bad day" without guilt!
    I loved and love food, this will never change! Sometimes you have to let your body remember the pleasure but let it fulfill you for the next days.
    1917 days ago
    Ah, call it one bad day and move on. Hugs!

    (But as another poster said, if you are exercising more, you might need more calories now than you did before. Maybe revisit your settings on Spark and see if your calorie allowance needs to go up a bit.)
    1917 days ago
  • ARW715
    No helpful words of advice, just hugs. Tomorrow will be better.
    1918 days ago
  • LYNNA1968
    LOL don't say the "F" word!!! Remove it from your vocabulary. Its mean and nobody calls my friends that NOT even if its about themselves emoticon
    Maybe instead of focusing on every minute, every day for the rest of your life, lol your putting a lot of unnecessary pressure on yourself. Life is to be enjoyed. Try giving yourself one "ME" day, your inner demon won't scream so loud if you give yourself some wiggle room.
    1918 days ago
    Call today a cheat day and start over tomorrow?

    My basic answer to cravings is to drink more herbal tea and/or indulge in ONE serving of ONE thing I crave, but not every day. Mostly I just keep bad stuff out of the house and it isn't available to me.

    However, I am having a hard time now that I live with someone who always has tortillas around. I have a major weakness for Mexican tortillas. Well, Spanish tortillas too, but those can potentially be healthy!
    1918 days ago
    Is that to do with the amount of calories you are burning? You are the skinniest fat girl I've ever seen! Perhaps you need some extra calories?

    It may not work for you, but I use my cravings for a meal. Cake and ice cream for instance, I'd drop the spag bol!
    1918 days ago
    That's not the "fat girl" inside of you -- it's the human! Those foods are borderline addictive and they call to even the sanest and slimmest amongst us. To a certain extent what you're saying is true: those foods will always have some appeal to you. And while you can't change that, you CAN change your attitude towards it. All the food you described is no one's "ideal diet" but you know what? Things happen! Moderation is tough to exercise. I think the best thing you can do is forgive yourself and give some thought to what may have started these cravings.

    As for me, I've found that the less I indulge, the weaker the cravings become. Well, to be honest, first they build to something of a crescendo and then they die off. So, when I am faced with temptation, I'm not just thinking, "Do I want to eat this now?", I'm also thinking "Do I want to deal with the intense cravings that will inevitably follow?"

    But I have by no means perfected this so take my advice with a grain of salt. The most important part is that we're both grappling with this and we will prevail (eventually). Maybe part of prevailing is realizing that we'll never completely vanquish these thoughts and episodes. Still, emoticon
    1918 days ago
  • FIRE916
    It sounds to me like you are so focused on what you aren't "supposed" to have that it has become all that you can think about. Try to remember that this process is a life change not a diet. You have to make allowances for those quote "bad" foods in your every day meals. I think if you change your mind set about what you can and can not have it will help you conquer this food obsession. Every day is a new day and a new start. Don't look back and tell that "fat girl" voice that she can take a hike. Best of luck.
    1918 days ago
    1918 days ago
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