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This is the Part Where I Used to Give Up

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Friday, February 22, 2013

Here’s the deal--I CAN multitask, but I do better if I focus on one big thing at a time. Sometimes, that slows things down a little, but it works for me. I’ve turned into a slow and steady kind of gal, as far as goals go. Lately, I’ve focused on tracking my food, every day. I’m getting into the habit of pre-tracking in the morning. I like that. You know I love streaking; this is Day 26 of tracking my food (Day 691 of my exercise streak). So, I’ve been tracking and exercising.

I should mention that I’ve been in between my 5% Challenge Team challenges. We take a couple of breaks during the year. I decided not to weigh in, during my break this time. Um, yeah--that may not have been such a great idea... I kinda thought, with all the tracking and everything, that I wouldn’t have to worry about it. Not so much a guarantee. The new challenge starts tomorrow, so I weighed in the other day, just to see where I was. Here’s the thing--I had a few red flags, beforehand. My jeans were starting to get tight again. Hmmm. I just felt, well--bigger. When I stepped on the scale, I had a significant gain. Significant. Like, undo a whole year’s worth of work significant. No joke.

This is the part where I used to give up. This is the part where I used to be so disappointed in myself, decide it wasn’t worth it, it was impossible, and I’d quit. But that was before I discovered my secret power of awesome. I’m not gonna lie, I’m bummed that I had a significant gain. But now, I can step back and see more clearly. “Good job on tracking, Shelli. Good job! Now, let’s start tweaking a few things and see if we can stay on the lower end of your calorie range, instead of high or over.” See how that thought process recognizes what needs to be changed, without totally eliminating the accomplishment? That’s a HUGE step for me! That’s forward thinking and forward is where I want to go.

I can also see other things in my life that are pretty amazing right now. I’m getting stronger. I’ve been using a 100 Pushups Coach app on my phone for several weeks now. I can do 100 pushups, on my knees, in one session, with tiny breaks in between sets. It’s hard, but I can do it. Yes, I will toot my own horn a little, thank you very much. I’m pretty proud of that. I’ve also been using the heck out of my FitBit. I catch myself doing all kinds of things, to try to get in extra steps. I even have a little dance that I do while chanting, “Every step counts, every step counts, every step.” Hey, whatever works, right? I’m active; I’m moving. Recently, I’ve had several people misjudge and think I was at least 20 years younger than I am. I don’t know that that’s necessarily an accomplishment. I think I chalk that up to attitude and a round face, but hey, I’ll take it.

And it’s not just all physical. We’re going through some really tough parenting stuff with our son right now. Let’s just say it’s called tough love for a reason. It’s hard! Take the regular teen stuff, amplify it with special needs, and you have a parenting workout on your hands. But, we’re doing it and that’s an accomplishment too, that we’re not giving up, that we’re willing to do the hard stuff.

I’m working on a creative project with a local artist right now and it has me SO fired up! We’re having so much fun, putting all these pieces together and making something really special. It’s stretching and challenging my creative muscle and that kind of work is good for my soul. If I could weigh that stuff? Well, the scale would be TONS lighter!! Let’s do that--let’s have an imaginary scale that weighs our non-scale victories. I would be way beyond goal right now. I’d be a Non-Scale Supermodel. LOL

My point is, this is the part where I used to give up, but not this time. Yes, tomorrow, when I weigh in, I have to register a much higher weight on my SparkPage. The little duck on my ticker is going to take a pretty big swim backwards. But, he’s still swimming. He hasn’t drowned and I’m not going to shoot him!! He’s still smiling and so am I. Because this is real life and weight is only one part of it. So, if you’ve had a setback, even a significant one--take a step back. Recognize what needs to change, but give yourself credit for what you HAVE accomplished. Don’t shoot the duck. Keep swimming!

Me and Houdini, the lil rubber duck that my buddy SNOWANGELDIVA sent me. Don’t worry, Liz; he’s still alive!!


Side note: This lil sock snake was a recent entry in my Daily Creativity Journal. Isn’t he cute?

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  • MARGARITTM
    Thanks for another great blog

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  • JULIA1154
    Thanks for a great post that came at just the right time, Shelli. If I could save it to my 'favorites' I would!

    Re: activity and racking up steps - try jogging in place while folding laundry; it's amazing how much more gratifying it becomes :)

    Carry on!!
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  • ROSGETSSERIOUS
    Great attitude - I needed to read this today since I have been bouncing - I have lost six kilos in the last couple of months - trouble is - it is the same kilo six times - eeeekkk!!!
    We can do it! emoticon
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  • SUZLOOZ
    Long live the duck! I love your approach. It's very creative.
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  • RACEWELLWON
    Great honesty , I know what you mean - I get to that same point , sometimes . We can trick ourselves into thinking that ( I ) do not need to weigh myself ( for me I think its fear of disappointment in myself) and I also believe that as we get closer to goal weight we need to get craftier with the calorie range on the tracker ( its hard for me to imagine , eating more to lose weight) but now that I gave in to the idea and let the experts show me the way - I am back on track - I have confidence that you'll do great in this challenge - Oh - my Hoop Arrived ! Yeah - Love that Snake ! Karen emoticon emoticon
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  • DLBROWN93
    Congratulations on your decision to keep moving forward, it's not easy when there are major changes going on in your life.
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  • BKNOCK
    Great blog, you are not the only one whose ticker is swimming backwards!
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  • KARENE10
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  • KANOE10
    That was perfect for me to read. Focus on what needs to be done. Don't shoot the duck. Praise yourself for your accomplishments. Thanks for a great blog. emoticon
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  • LIFETIMER54
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  • WORKOUTWITHPAM
    BEST WISHES in reaching all of your goals.
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  • LAURIETAIT
    I too, am entering this challenge at a significantly higher weight. On the up side, I think it may be easier to lose the 5% this time. lol
    1940 days ago
  • MARYJEANSL
    First, I have to say that I LOVE the sock snake. Would that I were one half so creative! Second, you said it - THE thing is to not quit. It is so, so easy to get frustrated when something goes wrong, but quitting is totally the worst thing to do. Keep on keeping on! And congrats on your many, many non-scale victories!
    1940 days ago
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  • RONDLEW
    Way to keep your focus. emoticon
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  • TERILEE51
    Wow,I hope I can learn to be as positive as you are.Im sure with your mindset you are going to do great!Thanks for the inspiration! emoticon
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  • SHARIKAYE
    Wow! You are incredible! I wish I could save this blog somewhere and read it again when my motivation is down. You have such a positive outlook on the the 'good' that is going on in your life and not fixing your eyes just on the scale. I have no doubt you will accomplish what you are setting out to do. 691 days of excercise!! That rocks!! What can I say? You ROCK!!
    Thanks for sharing girl! It was definitely an inspiring read!
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  • HEALTHYJEANIE
    Thank you sharing this.....You do have a secret power of awesome! emoticon
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  • SHIRE33
    It's helpful for me to see, in your blog and in the comments, that I am not alone! I put on significant weight, too, over the past six months. But I haven't thrown up my hands in despair. I didn't gain everything back. I didn't totally stop exercising. I gained it, but I know I can lose it, too. I'm also doing the 5% challenge, my first one, and it's really motivating. I like adding to the team totals. We are SO going to rock it this spring!

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  • MINNA72
    You are amazing, Shelli! I am going to take a page from your book and not shoot the duck. But, oh boy, do I wanna.... ;)
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  • SLIMLEAF
    Shelli, have I told you before that you are amazing? Well, you are!

    I'm so proud of you!

    I, too, have had a Significant weight gain over the past few months and an Accelerated Significant weight gain since breaking my leg 4 weeks ago. Like you, I was very tempted to give up and I started to have more of the "I really don't like myself" type of thoughts.

    But (also like you) I decided NOT to give up. I told myself that it might be difficult but it's entirely up to me - it's just about making the right choices. And I'm going to do just that.
    So I recorded my highest ever weight on Spark People and set about being really committed to the Winter 5% Challenge. So far, I've stayed within my calorie range for the two days of the challenge.

    I'm in this with you, Shelli - and we're going to do it!
    God bless you.
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  • SKY214
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  • PINKLOTUS748
    Great attitude and perspective!!! Keep on girl, you've got this!!!
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  • CINDYW1102
    I really enjoyed your blog! I am impressed with your positive attitude. As for the "parenting workout," I've been there & done that & as they say..."this too shall pass."
    Hang in there with your good habits! emoticon
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  • SUMTHINGSPECIAL
    I think you are doing awesome! The easiest way to fail on this journey is to expect too much of yourself - to expect to lose quickly, without much effort, and to never make mistakes. You are doing well on all of those counts! Having a healthy attitude is just as important to your success as leading a healthy life.

    Good job!
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  • KICKINGKILOS
    I love your positive attitude.
    We all need it time to time.
    I love that snake sock.
    Kudos on 100 push ups a day...its awesome.
    I too give up at this time and although I haven't gained I haven't lost either.
    Thats my story. Love the blog.
    You rock.xoxx

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  • JUNEAU2010
    I needed this blog today. Thanks for sharing. I have undone a couple of months of hard fought loss by a two week eating jag wherein I ate as if there were no such things as calories or fat!

    I won't quit now either!
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  • FIRECOM
    When Britain was going through the real tough times in WW II, Churchill gave a short inspiring speech.

    Never give up, never give up NEVER GIVE UP. That was it and the Brits responded with new enthusiasm and did, indeed, persevere.
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  • HARRIET2
    Needed to hear that blog! Thank you. I purposely didn't set foot on the scale for 4 weeks because last time I did I was so discouraged I quit for a week. Though I haven't gained, I only lost maybe 2 pounds. I have been eating at the top and sometimes over my calorie range and have not been keeping up with my walking. So thanks for the encouragement. I will change what is not working!
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  • LIVINHEALTHY9
    The power of awesomeness will get you through. Plus, you inspire us all!
    Keep hanging tough!



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  • GABBY98_80
    Praying for you and your fam this week that God will bless you with some "fresh air" in the midst of the tough love and that everyone will feel relaxed, peace, and loved.

    Way to hang in there with your streaks! (I recommend "they call her the streak" ray stevens- for your next music video :)

    Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all your way acknowledge Him and HE will make your path straight.

    Hang in there lady!
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  • RAKRHYME
    With such positive energy it is absolutely alright to toot your horn a bit!!!
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    i love your attitude.....
    Thanks for inspiring me to look at the positive things and keep the journey on!!
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  • GABY1948
    You are such a cutie and a GREAT inspiration! Thanks for ALWAYS being so positive!
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  • ICANDI4U
    Great attitude! Keep pushing. I have to lose all over again, but I know better now.
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  • CYND59
    691 days of exercise...WOW! You are doing awesome.
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  • NEWCHINELO
    Keep pushing!
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  • MILLIE5522
    Just brilliant! You should have a t-shirt printed with the slogan "Don't shoot the duck" which we could wear when we gain to remind ourselves of your awesomeness!
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  • LRSILVER
    Keep pushing you can do this.
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  • STEPH-KNEE
    You are amazing! I love what you said about the duck is still swimming, he is not dead or drowning, he is swimming. I was on a plateau for 3 months and that is usually when I give up, after about 2-3 weeks of the scale not budging I think "why bother" and then I'm done. I stuck it out and now I am FINALLY seeing the weight drop off again after 3 months of torture. Your power of awesome is doing the trick, and it sounds like despite the scale, you are rocking the heck out of LIFE, and that is really what counts anyways, right? emoticon
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