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This is the Part Where I Used to Give Up

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Friday, February 22, 2013

Here’s the deal--I CAN multitask, but I do better if I focus on one big thing at a time. Sometimes, that slows things down a little, but it works for me. I’ve turned into a slow and steady kind of gal, as far as goals go. Lately, I’ve focused on tracking my food, every day. I’m getting into the habit of pre-tracking in the morning. I like that. You know I love streaking; this is Day 26 of tracking my food (Day 691 of my exercise streak). So, I’ve been tracking and exercising.

I should mention that I’ve been in between my 5% Challenge Team challenges. We take a couple of breaks during the year. I decided not to weigh in, during my break this time. Um, yeah--that may not have been such a great idea... I kinda thought, with all the tracking and everything, that I wouldn’t have to worry about it. Not so much a guarantee. The new challenge starts tomorrow, so I weighed in the other day, just to see where I was. Here’s the thing--I had a few red flags, beforehand. My jeans were starting to get tight again. Hmmm. I just felt, well--bigger. When I stepped on the scale, I had a significant gain. Significant. Like, undo a whole year’s worth of work significant. No joke.

This is the part where I used to give up. This is the part where I used to be so disappointed in myself, decide it wasn’t worth it, it was impossible, and I’d quit. But that was before I discovered my secret power of awesome. I’m not gonna lie, I’m bummed that I had a significant gain. But now, I can step back and see more clearly. “Good job on tracking, Shelli. Good job! Now, let’s start tweaking a few things and see if we can stay on the lower end of your calorie range, instead of high or over.” See how that thought process recognizes what needs to be changed, without totally eliminating the accomplishment? That’s a HUGE step for me! That’s forward thinking and forward is where I want to go.

I can also see other things in my life that are pretty amazing right now. I’m getting stronger. I’ve been using a 100 Pushups Coach app on my phone for several weeks now. I can do 100 pushups, on my knees, in one session, with tiny breaks in between sets. It’s hard, but I can do it. Yes, I will toot my own horn a little, thank you very much. I’m pretty proud of that. I’ve also been using the heck out of my FitBit. I catch myself doing all kinds of things, to try to get in extra steps. I even have a little dance that I do while chanting, “Every step counts, every step counts, every step.” Hey, whatever works, right? I’m active; I’m moving. Recently, I’ve had several people misjudge and think I was at least 20 years younger than I am. I don’t know that that’s necessarily an accomplishment. I think I chalk that up to attitude and a round face, but hey, I’ll take it.

And it’s not just all physical. We’re going through some really tough parenting stuff with our son right now. Let’s just say it’s called tough love for a reason. It’s hard! Take the regular teen stuff, amplify it with special needs, and you have a parenting workout on your hands. But, we’re doing it and that’s an accomplishment too, that we’re not giving up, that we’re willing to do the hard stuff.

I’m working on a creative project with a local artist right now and it has me SO fired up! We’re having so much fun, putting all these pieces together and making something really special. It’s stretching and challenging my creative muscle and that kind of work is good for my soul. If I could weigh that stuff? Well, the scale would be TONS lighter!! Let’s do that--let’s have an imaginary scale that weighs our non-scale victories. I would be way beyond goal right now. I’d be a Non-Scale Supermodel. LOL

My point is, this is the part where I used to give up, but not this time. Yes, tomorrow, when I weigh in, I have to register a much higher weight on my SparkPage. The little duck on my ticker is going to take a pretty big swim backwards. But, he’s still swimming. He hasn’t drowned and I’m not going to shoot him!! He’s still smiling and so am I. Because this is real life and weight is only one part of it. So, if you’ve had a setback, even a significant one--take a step back. Recognize what needs to change, but give yourself credit for what you HAVE accomplished. Don’t shoot the duck. Keep swimming!

Me and Houdini, the lil rubber duck that my buddy SNOWANGELDIVA sent me. Don’t worry, Liz; he’s still alive!!

Side note: This lil sock snake was a recent entry in my Daily Creativity Journal. Isn’t he cute?

Spark ON, Brave Sparkers!!!
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