Still Consider Myself the Fat Girl

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I still picture myself as the overweight, morbidly obese girl who couldn't jump or touch her toes. When I am looking at a mirror and try to find myself to see how I am doing the Zumba moves I will not realize the thin girl in the purple workout shirt is ME. It is kind of a wonderful, yet weird feeling. I see myself being one of the most high impact moves in Zumba and I don't think it is me. Or, I see someone doing a move and I think to myself, oh I am too fat and out of shape to be able to do that. But, then I say, oh I guess I can TRY to do it, and guess what? Not only can I do it, it is easy!

I am lifting the same amount of weight as the instructor in Body Pump now. But, I didn't even really realize I was adding that much weight to my bar. I just kept saying after a few classes, let me try 2.5 pounds more. I shock myself every day that this person is me.

And, it is just going to keep getting better.

Today's goal 25,000 steps. I am at 20,000 right now. emoticon emoticon
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  • BUTTERFLY-1976
    It's amazing what happens when we just 'try' something!! I've tried a few things & a while later I'll ask myself..why did it take me so long to 'try' that? Keep up the great work. emoticon emoticon
    1919 days ago
  • -VIXEN-
    YOU ROCK! :)
    1919 days ago
    I understand what your feeling, it takes so much time until one can actually see the lbs off on oneself. When you finally see it, it is like when, how is it true? Even when one has more to lose like myself, it feels good but it is also a bit frightening, because sometimes you really see it and other days, you still wonder about it, at least that is what is happening to me.

    You look great, Congratulations!

    1919 days ago
    You have accomplished so much! Your profile picture should show you everything that you need to know! You are beautiful!
    You are an inspiration with all of your exercising! Wow on the number of steps!!
    I hope you are feeling more confident now.
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    1920 days ago
    just thinking maybe instead of getting a job you could be an exercise instructer . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1920 days ago
  • RAMONA1954
    Doing fantastic! It takes a while to see you "now" in the mirror instead of the old you. Don't give up one day you'll look in the mirror and see that fantastic person you are now. emoticon
    1920 days ago
    huge congratulatiions
    1920 days ago
  • BMELT2013
    emoticon emoticon Keep up the good work!
    1920 days ago
    I have those days, too. I still find myself looking around the room wondering if I'm the biggest one there. I have always been in that situation, and now it's strange to not be.

    I remember watching a documentary on BBC about a skinny person and a fat person switching lifestyles for a week (this was all monitored by doctors and dietitians). The skinny person would eat all the horrible, processed foods that the fat person ate, and the fat person would eat all the "rabbit" food and workout as much as the skinny person. Of course, they stereotyped the individuals in the show (ie, all fat people are lazy bums who eat McDonalds 5 times a day and all skinny people workout excessively and eat protein smoothies and only freggies). But part of the show involved someone who thought she was a lot heavier than she was. The show organized people with her same height in a line from lightest to heaviest and the person had to place herself in the line where she thought she stood. Of course, she placed herself much further on the heavier side than where she really should have been standing. It just shows that our own views of ourselves aren't always accurate and that there is no need to compare yourself to others or where you have been.

    Keep up the great work!
    1920 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Wowwy Zowwy, that is a lot of steps. Good for you on accomplishing so many great things in your life! I hope you see the beautiful girl in the mirror staring back at you that we see. Keep up the good work, you are doing awesome!
    1920 days ago
    WOW I was doing great when i was getting 16,00os teps walking the puppy, now with ice and snow just my 10 is great. YOU are doing fantastic!!!

    1920 days ago
    That is totally awesome. emoticon
    1920 days ago
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