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Emotional over load

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I gained this week. Not much but enough to do away with the loss I had last week. I spent a lot of energy last week avoiding my 2.5 mile runs that was required of couch 25K. That was not where my energy needed to go. I have been struggling with my attitude in general. I feel like I am getting a big look at myself and I don;t like what I see. I want to be loving regardless of how I am treated and I have been loved so much and yet, I still see the worst responses. I am meaning this specifically in regards to my kids. I mean they are kids...teenagers, pre-teens? I know that they are just acting out of their own hormones and misguided ideas. Why do I let them decide how I will act...I want to respond not react. But most of my life I have reacted. I have thought you are not gonna treat me like that...I'm badder than you...I'll show you...I am not taking that off you...but how can I expect maturity out of my kids when their mama is still pretty stunted in this area of growth. I'm feeling powerless to change and frustrated that this is still such an area of struggle. Sometimes it feels like I act no better than them and what's that? It's not that time of the month, but I swear my emotions are just ready to cry...really..I just want to cry emoticon
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    We all go through this, Kathy. I have 3 teenagers in the house and all boys! They tease a lot and sometimes, either they don't realize it hurts or sometimes don't care that it hurts me, and I take it too personal. My dh can roll with the punches, so to speak better than I can. As I have adult "children" as well, in time, this WILL pass...(unless they all get together and I swear they act like 2 yr olds again! lol) Hang in there, just ride the tide and know it's not forever!!!!
    1946 days ago
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    I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Hang in there. Hopefully the feeling will pass soon.
    1946 days ago
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    I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. I hope and pray things will get better for you soon. Hang in there. emoticon
    1946 days ago
    emoticon emoticon happens sometimes to all of us...it will pass...have faith.
    1946 days ago
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