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I AM Succeeding, Darn It!!!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

I have spent the past 2 months working hard at losing weight and to adjusting my food habits to keep my newly diagnosed diabetes in check. It can be frustrating to see the scale stay at or about the same place day after day. I feel like I am not getting anywhere. Yet, tonight I am sitting here and realizing I am really doing some remarkable things. I have to put them down here so I can see them and believe that I am really not a failure.

1) On 12/17/12 I had an average fasting glucose of 297; for the past week my glucose has been averaging 121. (100 is "normal") That's an improvement of 176 points in 2 months!!!! WOAH!!! That is something to celebrate. That doesn't just mean that I am watching my meals occasionally, that means I have been maintaining that over time. That is a hard thing to do as a diabetic "newbie".

2) Since being diagnosed, I have been on both oral meds and insulin. I am only taking half of the oral meds because of some side effects. The doctor knows and isn't real happy about it, but she is ok with it. My success from #1 above is on only half the medication that is supposed to help me bring the glucose numbers down. Not only am I working it, I am working it with only half the support of meds.

3) I didn't know this when I first started insulin but most people gain 10-15 pounds in the first month or so on it. I have not only NOT gained the weight, I have kept my weight at the level it was when first diagnosed. I have fluctuated up a pound or two, but I always manage to bring it back down. While this doesn't really help my feel encouraged by a downward trend on the scale, I feel like I have kicked butt and not gone backwards.

4) My two food nemesises (is that even a word??) have been potato chips and McDonalds--especially the fries. I have had neither since 12/18/2012. I have eaten out, I have had tortilla chips, but I have not given in to the two foods that really push me down the slippery slope. Every time I am tempted, I think about breaking my streak and decide that I would rather have my streak than chips or Micky Dee's fries. (Although it has been close a few times!)

In the past week or so I have gotten down on myself because I haven't been more successful at losing weight. I can see now that the weight loss will be even slower than before, but I have made some HUGE steps in improving my health.

For a lot of complex reasons I have not shared my diabetes diagnosis with more than a few people (other than my Spark Friends). I don't want people to treat me with kid gloves of offer "help"--even when I don't need it. This works well in all areas except one--support. I have no one in my day-to-day life that I can share my frustrations and my celebrate my successes. As much as I love my SparkFriends, sometimes I just need a face to face person to offer me words of wisdom, congratulations, and sympathy followed by a big hug. I know it is my choice to keep things quiet, but I can also see how I am missing out. I think this is going to have to be a new short-term goal.

I am through with my ruminating in my tunnel vision bemoaning my lack of progress. I am going to celebrate the incredible things I have done in the past 8 weeks. I am going to step forward with confidence knowing I am headed in the right direction. I am moving forward and I am not going to let setbacks become ruts. I am going to keep succeeding as long as I keep doing what I am doing. Thanks SparkFriends for cheering me on, even when I can't see what there is to cheer for.
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    Good spirit!
    1939 days ago
    Give yourself a HUGE pat on the back! I saw my grandmother's live and die by food and lack of exercise for 30 years and both had Diabetes and Heart Disease. Great work caring for yourself!
    1941 days ago
    Linda, this is WONDERFUL news! I did not know about your diabetes, but am happy you are taking the steps needed to handle it and get healthier. By acknowledging just how far you've come, you are reinforcing the positive and kicking the negative to the curb! Double kudos for ignoring those McD and chip cravings. I know it's hard and you have proved how strong you can be!! emoticon
    1941 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Way to go! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1941 days ago
    That is awesome with your fasting blood sugars!!!!! You are rocking this! It is hard to stick to a healthy diet and do the things you know you need to so you can be healthier! You are doing this and there are so many of us that are proud of all you have accomplished. The NSV are just as important as the scale victories and in my opinion you have both! You have kept from gaining where most others gain and you have gotten on the right track! Keep up the good work and shout out all your successes here! We love to hear them!
    1943 days ago
    What a great blog. It shows that we are not defined by a number on a scale, but by everything in our lives. Congratulations on a successful 2 months, and here's to many more in the the future.
    1946 days ago
    I love that you itemized what you have accomplished. We all forget to do this when we are looking toward our goals and feel stagnated. By seeing exactly what you have done, you & we your friends, can see how very much you have accomplished!

    One thing that comes to my mind is that in actuallity, this past to months has been a shift in your goals really....yeah, you still have the weight loss goal but priority one has been getting this diabetes diagnosis in hand...learning a new skill set and dealing with some additional dietary rules. The fact that you have been doing so well with your #1 goal these past two months is phenominal! You know you can really do anything you set your mind to. And you will!
    1948 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    This is a journey to a healthier lifestyle and YOU are succeeding. The weight loss will come. I have many friends with diabetes and through all their struggles they have been able to lose weight....but it all takes time. YOU can do are heading in the right direction. Although you can't see me know that the hugs I send are real..... emoticon
    1948 days ago
    you are doing incredibly awesome . a lot of times it takes a long time for us to lose weight since jan i have only lost 4 pounds slow but steady is my motto. you are incredible emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1949 days ago
  • KELPIE57
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You are doing so well, and are an inspiration!
    1949 days ago
    Linda -- you might not be losing weight but you have made HUGE strides in your goal which is to eventually get off the meds! YEAH FOR YOU!

    I wish we lived closer .... I would come over and give you a huge hug!!

    Small steps lead to great strides!

    You ARE doing it!!

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    1949 days ago
    Praying God will show you a face to face friend you can confide in and get support that way!! You have come a long way!
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    I could go on and on about how well you have done but you already know that you are successful in your quest for better health.
    If possible get more veggies ina variety of colors and cut out meat as much as possible and you might just get the weight loss you seek.
    1949 days ago
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