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The Wisdom of Instant...not

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

On January 2nd, 2013, I signed up for SparkPeople because I had been making major changes and overhauling my whole life as I approached my 50th Birthday.
I got clear on the fact that I was overweight and that it was not going to just melt away because I kept wishing that it would. I deeply examining all my relationships. Painfully facing that one major long-term relationship was irreparably broken and needed to be discarded once and for all with all the dignity that I could muster and with gratitude for the lessons it taught me. My journey had brought me to a destination of clearing - letting go of fear, rejecting sluggishness, releasing my belief in scarcity and throwing away worn out, ill fitting shoes.

I made a committment to myself that for the rest of my life I would live every day conciously aware of who I am authentically. To tell the truth and be honest with myself, to live in integrity and keep my agreements to myself, to fully embrace my creativity and to be a catalyst for the creativity of others.

I have not achieved any of my committments "INSTANTLY". No magic relationship has appeared out of no where to replace the person I had to let go of. No glittery ruby red slippers dropped out of the clouds to whisk me away to home.

What did happen, is that I grieve some days and sometimes slip into a momentary lapse in faith that I am enough. There are days and even weeks on end when I feel better, think clearer and get more writing ideas down on paper than I ever have in my entire life. My vibrant, positive energy attracts vibrant, positive people in ALL the circles of my life - FitBit Users, colleauges, SparkFriends offer daily support, validation and encouragement. Family, friends, loved ones and strangers all relate to me in the same tender way of lovingkindness that I relate to the universe.

I used to look enviously upon people that appeared to have the gift of instant.
Those that had the uncanny ability to attract instant lovers, spontaneous marriages, successes and money. They projected the image of feeling completly secure with thier ability to access all things instant. This was before I understood that instant usually also means conveinant and conveinant can often mean shallow. Before I learned to distinguish between instant and hand crafted as it relates to life. The achievements and relationships that I craft for myself and that I share with my kinship are long term. Lifelong healthy, emotionally and spiritually well interactions of mutual sharing. These relationships are never one sided, they have no tolerance for any of the participants to be taken advantage of or used. I am capable and willing to "be there" for my loved ones when they actually need me and they do the same for me. I cherish the gradual. I adore the building and slow process and hand crafting of life in the long term.

I am doing my work daily. Waking every single morning with gratitude in my soul and on my lips, thankful for another opportunity to work my process and live my life.
There are no excuses to help me avoid my daily spiritual practice. I honestly show up for myself by not cheating on what I eat, tracking my food with the tools here on SparkPeople. There is no beating myself up if I forget to track, I catch up when I remember. Life is as simple as consuming 8 cups of water per day, adding more steps and low impact exercise to my daily routine and loving my whole self. I've not seen any huge weight loss yet (according to the scale, that is). But, my jeans are a whole lot loser aroud the tummy, and my overall muscle tone has greatly improved.

Let's all keep our heads up and ditch the idea of instant, in exchange we get to embrace the power of the long term.
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  • LILYPAD12311
    love it! You have a great attitude,,,, keep it up girl!
    1886 days ago
    Fantastic blog! You're an excellent example for all of us. Thank you for sharing this!
    1886 days ago
    You definitely are getting the mental part of this journey down cold! This will serve you not only in weight loss but in every corner of your life! You keep this mind set and keep going in the direction you have nothing will stop you!!
    1886 days ago
    You are so right about this. None of us put our weight on overnight and we should not expect overnight results from eating better and exercising more. We are all works in progress, and that is how we should view almost all aspects of our lives, not just weight loss.
    1887 days ago
  • _BABE_
    I am not sure why but turning 50 is a big one and I, too decided that I need to turn this train around, lose weight and get healthy. Funny... but it has been a tumultous year and I didn't count on that but shaking things up literally makes waves in every part of your life...hope you don't mind if I add you as a friend. emoticon
    1887 days ago
    Hi . . . I turned 50 ten years ago . . . . enjoy each day . . . it slips by quickly!!!

    I really appreciate your thoughts - quite timely - and I too am endeavoring to be more mindful.

    Having worked outside the home most of my life, I find that I am very much routine-oriented. So, I am trying to develop routines to keep myself more 'mindful' and in the moment.

    Keep with it. I can guarantee each day you honestly Spark will bring you closer to your goals.
    1887 days ago
  • VEG_GIRL04
    Thank you for putting into words what I am feeling today. About how success isn't instant, about how some relationships are truly broken and should be appreciated for what they were and let go, and for the reminder that putting out positive, happy, hard working vibes get the same in return.

    Not but a few hours ago I rededicated myself to living this way so this blog is so fitting. Congratulations - it's so hard for so many to realize what you have!
    1887 days ago
    Thank you for your beautiful blog. I too have trouble showing up for myself when I get discouraged since I have eaten myself from stress all the way up the scale.

    You say it right there is no instant fixes. The people I have observed that were most successful were those who were willing like you said to show up for themselves each day doing the right things for their lives. I am one who bores easily at routeine yet it seems it is the same consistent sometimes boring healthy regime which must be made part of our life without thinking that get you there.

    No great achievement or work or art has ever been created in a day. Also, if you study the success of many people we will find for year they have been preparing for where they are now in action, word and deed. Time for laying aside the instant gratification of childhood and not thinking Rome was built in a day is a good place to arrive at if we want to achieve our desired goals.

    Thank you for bringing these thoughts to light.

    Love Yvonne emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1887 days ago
    Hi there... my name is Kim and I am also turning 50 this year. I love this blog!
    1887 days ago
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