Maintaining-ish

Honesty time... I have bobbled back and forth between the same 10 pounds for over a year now. So in essence I have accidentally maintained a 165-155 range. Now I am not overly depressed/disappointed but this isn't exactly the progress I have set out for and laid out plans for again and again. I also cannot be gravely disappointed since I know the major culprit was when I had MRSA- not only is it very scary to be that ill for that long but it causes your metabolism to slow down to protect your body so you have energy to heal and stay alive. The biggest disappointment I have felt is when I see pictures before I became ill and I almost had abs showing through whereas now I could pass for pregnant. My body has resembled that suppleness a new mother has.
I still love my body. I am still proud of my progress. I am still proud of my strength and endurance, 6 miles running non stop, how could I not be proud?
Yet, I am so fn ready to reach my ultimate dream physique. Do I need to work harder? Yes. Am I ready? I think so. Am I getting tired of recommitting to get to my ultimate dream physique working my tush off then dwindling off and letting life stresses get in the way of me making myself and this dream a priority? Absolutely!
Before I got sick: See toning.

After being down and out:

Current:


I am VERY happy with my body, 50 pounds down. I just have bigger goals and dreams and I like finishing what I start.
&& I guess I am asking my sparkfamily to help keep me more accountable.

Thanks for reading. Keep sparking on sparkers and sparklys!