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Monday, February 18, 2013

Honesty time... I have bobbled back and forth between the same 10 pounds for over a year now. So in essence I have accidentally maintained a 165-155 range. Now I am not overly depressed/disappointed but this isn't exactly the progress I have set out for and laid out plans for again and again. I also cannot be gravely disappointed since I know the major culprit was when I had MRSA- not only is it very scary to be that ill for that long but it causes your metabolism to slow down to protect your body so you have energy to heal and stay alive. The biggest disappointment I have felt is when I see pictures before I became ill and I almost had abs showing through whereas now I could pass for pregnant. My body has resembled that suppleness a new mother has.
I still love my body. I am still proud of my progress. I am still proud of my strength and endurance, 6 miles running non stop, how could I not be proud?
Yet, I am so fn ready to reach my ultimate dream physique. Do I need to work harder? Yes. Am I ready? I think so. Am I getting tired of recommitting to get to my ultimate dream physique working my tush off then dwindling off and letting life stresses get in the way of me making myself and this dream a priority? Absolutely!
Before I got sick: See toning.

After being down and out:


I am VERY happy with my body, 50 pounds down. I just have bigger goals and dreams and I like finishing what I start.
&& I guess I am asking my sparkfamily to help keep me more accountable.

Thanks for reading. Keep sparking on sparkers and sparklys!
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    you are doing an awesome job! i know how you feel! keep it up and you will reach your goals! emoticon
    1878 days ago
    1878 days ago
    I completely understand where you are coming from, the hardest part of losing weight is toward the end when you are soo close. Just keep your head up and keep it consistent with your nutrition and your works out and you will definitely get there.
    1888 days ago
    You look great. I know how you feel but your "current" picture isn't anything to snuff at. I know you have more you want to do but considering your circumstances, you've been awesome.

    Someone would need to twist my arm off to get me to post pics pics of my stomach online at this point in my life - even considering that I've come nearly -60 pounds. You look FABULOUS! FABULOUS FABULOUS FABULOUS!

    So how can I help? Should I be pestering you every day to see if you've been eating clean/working out? ;)


    1888 days ago
    You have definitely done well - maintaining like that during illness and moving and everything else speaks highly for what you'll be able to do the rest of your life. You're not having to re-lose, you know? I know you'll get that body you want!
    1888 days ago
    You can do it; looking great despite being sick.

    1888 days ago
    You still have come so far and inspired so many. I'm so sorry you have been sick.
    Been meaning to ask you when that Fitness magazine article comes out. Did I miss it?
    1888 days ago
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