My worst enemy is myself

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I don't get why I self sabatouge myself daily if its not drinking enough water I'm eating fried foods like I know better right ok my guess hy do I do this not thinking just grabbing and going my eating habits are very bad I know

My exercise habits not any Better I want to lose weight I say but really if I did this is my use tion why do you keep putting yourself at the bottom of the totem pole by eating foods harder to work against plus the more fattening foods you eat the harder you have work or try to lose it my weakness is fried foods purely I lov salads too but then again the dressing is my weakness there too ranch creamy ranch I want it loaded too egg cheese bacon bits and french onions and sunflower seeds just like man I know better to sabatouge myself like that but I still do it by I don't know it makes me mad as heck but the cy le just never seems to stop I don't even crave it I just don't get I know it fast and easy to grab but you know I need to do better than a cheese sticks broccoli salad and wing dings my usual everyday lunch if a stressed day I gt okra too
I have tried to cut down on it like eat salad every other day and eat the meals like 2 days in a row cause I eat 3 wing dilngs one day half my broccoli salad save it for the next day but lately my foods been thrown away it crazy at work now a days some days good some days very bad some days it so bad I want to quit but I won't cause I know I need money everyone needs money to live and my husband health not been the best lately and if for some reason we have live off my check for the month it will not be good cause I only make 800. Every month so it's not even that if they give me 25 hours or less they have been doing that at least one week out of the month I average 35 hours a week then I will get a 25 week then another week of 32 so it kind of feels like they pushing me around now cause they decided I guess I'm going overnight for one I don't have but one vehicle and no matter how they spin it my husbands work from 7-4 but he has to leave work the same 30 minute drive as I have to get to my job they never talked to me about it I'd rather not work overnight considering its hard enough to get picked up at 11 I guess my husband never gets to sleep cause I have to be at work at 2-3 to when I get off at 11 he's still at work so no matter how we spin it with one vehicle it's hard to do when two of us work my mom takes me to work most days as he can pick me up but my mom will not want to have to get up that early in the morning just to pick me up from work every day
I need to get my license so I can get a car but I really don't want to drive just yet but maybe soon my husband has a standard on top of that and I don't want learn how to drive it cause anything goes wrong with it be my fault I don't want to hear it either so as far as my stress levels go I work some days like tomorrow is 2-10pm the next day I work 8-20 11-7 then I work 1-9 so I if I don't stay up till 11 every night I get headaches and craziness cause my body has been doing this for 3 weeks now and my schedule not bad but then some days I work 9-5 after getting off at 11p to that's when I have hard time cause I'm so tired I work my butt off too I'm constantly running to do hot case cook then sometimes I'm slicing meat on slicers and stuff
I'm very active at work and try not to struggle. But I fight myself more than I should I need to stop that focus on healthier option instead off the fred
options boy drinking more water
My new goals Eatinging on less fried
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    Every time I make time something else always comes up or just happens to get Interfered with or simply just goes south and I'm a very positive person but tired of being out in negative world trying to fix that too it's tough
    2190 days ago
    I know, I know...
    2190 days ago
    We all had to kick the fried foods, or at least learn to like foods "fried" in tiny amounts of fat. I had to learn to cook all over again, and only eat my own cooking. It seemed like an impossible task, but it was worth it.
    2191 days ago
    I know that feeling... It's a struggle with yourself... But you just have to give yourself the time to deal with it... It may take longer than you think to overcome a difficult situation like that, but you can do it.... Just be patient, go one thing at a time... Feel proud for the smallest things... But don't let this take away your desire to be healthy... Just keep going!

    2192 days ago
    Just take it one day at a time. You need to make your goals short term and reachable. Put them down for spark streak goals and see how long you can continue. Remember, one day at a time!
    2192 days ago
    Ok I will
    2192 days ago
  • ANY010113
    something that helps me is list out excuses or reasons why i do it, and pick one or 2 to work on each week, make a streak from it and it will get better.
    2192 days ago
    Your greatest ally is yourself too. I think drinking more water and eating less fried foods are both great goals! Why don't you see how you do for the next week and then report back in a new blog? emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2192 days ago
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