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Saturday, February 16, 2013

Why can't I seem to get it all together at once?
I used to think of myself as a powerful person when I really wanted something.
Does my lack of success mean I don't really want this?
I hope not.
I signed up at a new gym end of December, brand new in fact with great equipment and no crowds, though it is getting busier. I also signed up to work with a trainer twice a week. He has taken me from completely out of shape - worse shape of my life - to feeling like I can be strong again with work.
I've also tried out some of the classes and found some that I really enjoy. Spinning and shockingly a Zumba class that doesn't use all traditional Zumba music.

I've set 3 fitness goals:

Savin Rock 5K on 3/23
Jog with Judy 5K on 5/4
Bloomin' Metric Charity bike ride on 6/2 (which is my birthday weekend)

That is all the easy part.

Food is my challenge. I could cry when I think about food. I have a lot of issues with my stomach again. I am on medicine that just makes it much worse and I feel my body getting sicker and sicker. I don't even want to eat. I just eat because my stomach will hurt and I will vomit if I don't.

I want a do over button!!!

Well it doesn't exist and the only person who can fix this is me! So I need to get out of the self pity funk I'm in and take it one day, one meal at a time.

I am sitting down and planning out a weeks menu based on the foods I can tolerate.

I have been at the same weight since about two weeks after starting with the trainer. I lost 6 lbs and now fluctuate between 1-2 lbs in either direction but going nowhere.

My goals this week:

1. Drop one new lb beyond those first 6
2. Plan meals and stick to the plan, including eating every three hours using a timer.
3. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.
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    Hey Judie!

    Don't stress out... it doesn't help and it only makes you feel bad. You're taking steps and making progress! You've got some great exercise goals and have been seeing a trainer - that's FANTASTIC!!! You're changing yourself, you're no longer in the worst shape ever, you're on the path to fitness. Way to go!!! Quit being so down on yourself and realize what you just wrote. This is good stuff, Jude!

    Don't focus on the weight loss right now, focus on being WELL. Exercise and proper nutrition will bring your weight to a healthier place on its own. Besides which, 6 pounds in 6 or 7 weeks is pretty darn good - you just lost it in fits and starts! The scale will move again, but being an angsty teenager about it won't hurry it up any. Chill out, roll with it, and let it do what it wants to do, while you do what you want to do: be healthy.

    (And, um, water fasting? Seriously? LOL)

    Keep up the good work, Judie! You are doing it! Just keep making good decisions every day. Day by day, bit by bit, decision by decision, you will get there. Hugs!
    1924 days ago
    Like you said, you have gone from being unfit and unable to able. Be gentle to yourself about food and weight loss. We are not super human but we are capable human. What are you capable of doing today?
    1926 days ago
    1926 days ago
    talk to me about water fasting
    1926 days ago
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