I *refuse* to be one of these people who try, try, try, fail and give up. That is just not who I am. I have a very intense stubborn streak. Thus the reason that an 18 month plateau has not knocked me down. Okay, okay, okay, I will use the term 'plateau' loosely because I have been off and on the 'tracking' wagon and the intuitive eating wagon. I came to the realization recently that have used intuitive eating as a way to hide from doing what I know needs to be done to get the results I want. I will decide that I want to reach X weight, track for a little bit, get frustrated and then turn back to intuitive eating. IE is a fantastic way to live, I will vouch for that 100%. However, for me, it is not a good way to reach my goal weight (disclaimer: IE is NOT a weight loss program). Reaching my goal weight is what I want.
I set a goal weight of 135 recently and for the first time that doesn't seem like an out of reach goal. I recently picked up and have almost read cover to cover my Eat Clean Diet: Recharged book. Clean eating used to just be the 'way' for me. It wasn't a sacrifice or a pain, it was just how I ate. That way of eating for me gave way to life with four kids. 'Nuff said, right? Convenience foods once again had a strong appeal to me when I have spent this last year and a half dealing with severe exhaustion and disorganization. I will admit it. It sucks, but that is how it is. My little guy has just recently (like within the two months) began sleeping through the night and it has been PURE BLISS!!!!! OMG, I can't even shout it out loud enough! It feels grand to feel like I have energy again, a regular sleep schedule. WOW! I can function once again!!
It has been a rough year and a half, I will admit it. I am back to my 5am workouts (
it!!!) and eating clean.
It feels so good to 'be back' in a way. But that is where I feel like I am. Just back. Exercise has never been my problem. I love to workout, exercise is my (for lack of a better word) hobby. It gives me a release which is so terribly needed with four kids more often than not. But food, moreover, the RIGHT kids of food have been my problem. I KNOW that food is 80% of the equation. I KNOW it. But KNOWING and DOING are two separate things. The time to put my knowledge behind my action has come.
I feel good. I went to the library and checked out several books recommended to me for eating and workouts -- I am on a primary lifting program now for cardio I am pretty much just interval based with quite a bit of yoga. I am finishing up the Push phase of ChaLEAN and am wondering what in the heck to do after I finish that. I checked out The New Rules of Lifting for Women, Sculpting her Body Perfect, Your Best Body Now (I didn't realize that was geared for the over 40 crowd but may still give it a read) so I am arming myself with a plan for post ChaLEAN. I need workouts that I can do at home, joining a gym just isn't an option for me at this time as much as I would like to. I have also considered the LIVEFIT 12 week plan from Jamie Eason. I am willing to take any suggestions so feel free to post them!
So that is it and me for now! I will have an update on my weigh in for this week hopefully tomorrow! Wish me luck!