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Friday, February 15, 2013

I *refuse* to be one of these people who try, try, try, fail and give up. That is just not who I am. I have a very intense stubborn streak. Thus the reason that an 18 month plateau has not knocked me down. Okay, okay, okay, I will use the term 'plateau' loosely because I have been off and on the 'tracking' wagon and the intuitive eating wagon. I came to the realization recently that have used intuitive eating as a way to hide from doing what I know needs to be done to get the results I want. I will decide that I want to reach X weight, track for a little bit, get frustrated and then turn back to intuitive eating. IE is a fantastic way to live, I will vouch for that 100%. However, for me, it is not a good way to reach my goal weight (disclaimer: IE is NOT a weight loss program). Reaching my goal weight is what I want.

I set a goal weight of 135 recently and for the first time that doesn't seem like an out of reach goal. I recently picked up and have almost read cover to cover my Eat Clean Diet: Recharged book. Clean eating used to just be the 'way' for me. It wasn't a sacrifice or a pain, it was just how I ate. That way of eating for me gave way to life with four kids. 'Nuff said, right? Convenience foods once again had a strong appeal to me when I have spent this last year and a half dealing with severe exhaustion and disorganization. I will admit it. It sucks, but that is how it is. My little guy has just recently (like within the two months) began sleeping through the night and it has been PURE BLISS!!!!! OMG, I can't even shout it out loud enough! It feels grand to feel like I have energy again, a regular sleep schedule. WOW! I can function once again!! emoticon It has been a rough year and a half, I will admit it. I am back to my 5am workouts ( emoticon it!!!) and eating clean.

It feels so good to 'be back' in a way. But that is where I feel like I am. Just back. Exercise has never been my problem. I love to workout, exercise is my (for lack of a better word) hobby. It gives me a release which is so terribly needed with four kids more often than not. But food, moreover, the RIGHT kids of food have been my problem. I KNOW that food is 80% of the equation. I KNOW it. But KNOWING and DOING are two separate things. The time to put my knowledge behind my action has come.

I feel good. I went to the library and checked out several books recommended to me for eating and workouts -- I am on a primary lifting program now for cardio I am pretty much just interval based with quite a bit of yoga. I am finishing up the Push phase of ChaLEAN and am wondering what in the heck to do after I finish that. I checked out The New Rules of Lifting for Women, Sculpting her Body Perfect, Your Best Body Now (I didn't realize that was geared for the over 40 crowd but may still give it a read) so I am arming myself with a plan for post ChaLEAN. I need workouts that I can do at home, joining a gym just isn't an option for me at this time as much as I would like to. I have also considered the LIVEFIT 12 week plan from Jamie Eason. I am willing to take any suggestions so feel free to post them!

So that is it and me for now! I will have an update on my weigh in for this week hopefully tomorrow! Wish me luck!
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    My little guy is sleeping too, hurray! It just feels so wonderful, getting your old self back, it's like getting reacquainted with someone you thought you'd lost!

    Biggest food challenge for me is finding time to cook food that tastes good! Once I have a quinoa salad with fresh herbs, eating well isn't so bad. Oh, to have a private cook...
    2430 days ago
  • LIBRA73
    I am so glad little man is sleeping!

    I have the same prob - love exercise - don't always eat as I should! ARG! So frustrating when you know better and still do something dumb anyway!

    I love your energy and I think you are just amazing!
    2436 days ago
    I am totally doing a Jamie Eason Program! Imlooked atmlive fit, but I am starting with her burning the fat program to hopefully lose the chub then go onto her live fit program. She has totally turned into my fitness role model, and Strength training seems so very cool. There is a site called girls gone strong, and then bodybuilding com has sone good programs too.

    Congrats on the little one sleeping through the night! You ave had quite a year and a half, and I know you can get through this plateau :)
    2436 days ago
    Your little is sleeping! Yay!! That alone gives us a new lease on life. It's amazing how life-changing sleep is, and how underrated it is!

    I think we have to continuously adjust our lives and doing so means we're paying attention to the eddies and flow of life around us. It sounds like you're on the right track, if not the same track. Good on you.
    2437 days ago
    You're doing so well and I'm glad to hear that your little guy is getting more rest so you can too.

    Keep on doing what your doing, it's working!
    2438 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I'm so glad your little one has finally started sleeping through. Getting enough sleep makes everything else so much easier to handle. None of the other other "stuff" goes away, it just gets smaller somehow when you're well rested.

    I don't have any advice for a workout plan, but I bet your library has a workout section. It may be older and outdated (my library's is) but you may find something to try there and if you really like it you could buy it when the library copy is due back.

    Or maybe give some of the Spark videos a shot. They're free so you don't lose anything if you decide after one go that it's not for you.
    2439 days ago
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    2439 days ago
    You can do it Girl! I think I may be checking out the books you mentioned as well. When I finished CLX, I waited a week and then started it over again using heavier weights. I am starting to see some results. But variety is also good so I am up for that as well. Good luck figuring out your plan of attack. Love Clean Eating, too.
    2439 days ago
    It is just so good to hear you feeling so calm and energized!
    Here are a couple of suggestions, to enter into the spirit of where you're at right now:
    Measure things (cups, tablespoons) to make sure that you are not eating more than you think you are. I have been doing that recently as a reality check and found that my guesstimates were a little off. Plus what we think is a "serving" is usually double what is given as a serving on a package or a calorie counter. I was WAY off on condiments.

    Try backing off on the exercise for a few days, not stopping, just easing up. Sometimes I think that being super gung-ho with exercise is shocking for our body and it interprets it as stress. Kind of throws everything out of kilter and puts it in a consistent recovery mode that is traumatic (at least that's the way it seems to me).

    I know that they say food is more important than exercise. I never believed it.
    But recently I have decided to challenge some of my do-it-yourself attitudes and focus on food much more than exercise and I played with that for a little while. It has been an interesting week.

    Recently I have been through the wringer with digging deep to get at the root of emotional eating....with quite a bit of success. But, as I recall, you do not have much of a problem with that. If you did, I would suggest that you work with that.

    Maybe you could try that free trial Spark Coack offer, if it is still available?

    2439 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/15/2013 5:41:27 PM
    Fall down seven times, stand up eight!

    Make today a great day
    2439 days ago
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