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Thursday, February 14, 2013

I have been sitting around the house all week and not doing anything but that is going to change starting tomorrow. I am going to get up at 6 am my time and wait until 6:30 am to get my young son up for school and get him and I breakfast. At 7 am I will get him down to the bus stop and wait with him until the bus comes. After he gets on the bus and leaves for school I will go for a walk around the block if my legs can handle it.

When I get back I am going to start cleaning house then doing a few loads of laundry and then doing about an hours worth the workouts using my 3, 5 and 10 lb weights. I will also use my exercise balls. I want to build my upper body along with the muscles in my legs. If I can keep this up each day I will feel better and it will help keep the weight off even though I feel like I gained about 5 lbs back.

I will eat lunch the start back at it and even try and go for another walk around the block hopefully. I want to do this for me and me only and no matter what no one will ever stop me and tell me that I dont need to lose weight. I wantto be able to fit into my size 10 jeans again and feel good about myself.

When dinner time comes I will watch what I eat and how much I eat because lately I have been eating way to much and that is not good for me. I have been feeling depressed and lonely lately and I know that I shouldn't but I do. My mum and dad has told me that if I want this bad enough then just go for it and that is exactly what I am going to do because I want to be happy again and see myself 3 months down the road weighing below 200 lbs and come hell or high water I will get there even if it kills me.

I don't ever want to feel like this again and I know its my fault that I am like this because I listen to too many people and what they tell me I should do but no more. I am only going to listen to my Spark friends and my heart. My heart is telling right now that I am doing the right thing by posting this blog and how I feel about my weight.

I am going to keep working at it no matter what I Susan Walsh want to lose this weight and feel great about myself again and to be able to look in a mirror a few months down the road and see the weight coming off and work hard to keep it off
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    Yes sweetie, you so deserve and I know it will come to you...Like I said, look at where you were a few months ago and see the whole picture, how much you've done and lost and been through...youa re doing good girl!! very very good....
    1944 days ago
    Way to go sweetie, you can do it. SP follows the KISS system, Keep It Simple Silly. And it does work. It's the least expensive yet, simplest, and most healthy way to lose weight or get fit. One just has to really want it, really follow it, really stay honest with it, and all else will fall into place.

    You are right to make it YOURS and YOURS only as far as who to do this for. While it is nice to do many things for others, this is one thing that NEEDS to be done for yourself. Even I did it originally for my daughter's wedding. And that really got me focused and true to the plan. But when I reached my goal and the wedding was over, I lost focus and determination. I now have my son's wedding in Nov. to stay healthy for and that will again give me more motivation, but I still need to ingrain in my head it is for ME and for a LIFETIME, or I will lose focus again next year. Stay focused and keep the faith.
    1949 days ago
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    Thanks ladies, lets all work together to give each other support and i will keep you all posted as how i am doing and how far i walk starting tomorrow
    1955 days ago
    A self push is what we all need sometimes! I'm glad you've dug down deep and going for it!! You got this girly!! I'll add you as a sp friend and you can add me if you want! We can do this one day at a time!!
    1955 days ago
    1955 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I know how it feels to dislike your weight. I want to encourage you to take one day at a time and make your dreams realities!
    1955 days ago
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