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surgery today

Thursday, February 14, 2013

I tore my left knee meniscus 35 years ago. Surgery. I tore my left knee up (I slipped and fell) 2 weeks ago and now I am getting surgery to remove the remainder of the meniscus, and to replace my ACL. More surgery! I am not a happy camper. I'm a scared little girl and I don't want to do this. See. I've BEEN thru this before with my OTHER knee and I KNOW what this means. I know the pain, and I know it is gonna take 9 months of recovery, I know my right knee has never stopped hurting, has never gotten as strong as it was originally. and I don't wanna DO it to my left knee! So this is my last fit of anxiety and self-pity.

Sure, it is my choice. I can have surgery, or I can face sure severe arthritis very soon. I'm doing what is better for me, but it doesn't seem like a GOOD choice anyway. I get to choose between a rock and a hard place! In 3 hours, I am going under the knife.

From now on, I must count my blessings and see the silver lining.
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    I hope all goes well. Things are much better with today's surgeries and I sure hope that's the case for you! God bless.
    1926 days ago
    Surgery 35 years ago versus surgery today: two different things. Wishing you a speedy recovery!
    1928 days ago
    Koshi - I wish you all the best with this surgery and hope the outcome will be good this time. I shall keep you in my thoughts.
    1928 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/14/2013 3:50:56 PM
    I am praying your surgery will go well and that your pain and recovery will be less than the previous. emoticon
    1928 days ago
    God be with you during this time! May you heal and recover quickly!
    1928 days ago
    I hope everything goes as well as it can possibly go for you! Perhaps you'll have a better outcome with this surgery than with the last. Best of everything to you!
    1928 days ago
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