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HARD to admit this....but I am fat.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

It is hard to admit that I am fat. I know that I am fat, but really admitting it? Not so easy. I think, "I am tall, I don't look that heavy" or "That is just a bad angle, I don't look that heavy" or "these movie theater seats are just getting smaller, I am not that heavy". Yeah, I am heavy. I was at a sales convention recently and someone suggested I, like her, do gastric bypass. Really?? My eyes bugged out of my head. I started doing the math. I could most likely fit into my beautiful closet of clothes in 50 pounds. Fifty. Pounds. That is a lot.

I had a STRESSFUL day today. I have a very stressful job. Some days better than others, but most people say they wouldn't wish my job on anyone. I wanted to eat pizza or drink wine or eat pizza AND drink wine. I am drinking water and going to have a piece of fruit.

I hope I can keep this up. It is hard to admit that I am fat, but it would be hard to accept that I have to stay fat.
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    The biggest difference though is that you're doing something about it, and you won't be bigger forever. You're doing a great thing for yourself!
    1954 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Admitting it is a big deal, took me a long time to realize it before I did something about it. If we rationalize to ourselves that there isn't a problem, we'll never be mobilized enough to act.

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    1954 days ago
    The first step is admitting it. That was crazy hard for me to do as well. But I saw a picture of myself that nearly brought me to tears. Once I accepted that I was 272 lbs and not just tall and thick, I was able to make changes. You can make changes and while it may take a while, you don't have to feel this way forever.
    1954 days ago
    Overweight may be your present, but it doesn't have to be your future! Keep going, and you will get to where you want to be!

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    1954 days ago
    We had to crawl and fall many times before we get it right. We will have many obstacles along the way. I feel that our obstacles are a way to only make us stronger in the end. It gives us the chance to refocus on what we are not doing to succeed. Small changes at time equal success in the end. One ounce, one inch, one pound at a time gets up closer to our journey. Stay positive even if your having a bad day. Find a positive to make your day/ evening brighter. Best of luck to you on your journey. emoticon
    1954 days ago
    you are not alone, remember. sparkpeople makes us realize that we need help and that we are not alone in this journey towards a better life. just keep sparking!
    1954 days ago
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