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I need a pick me up.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Ever woke up one day and realized you didn't know who you were anymore?

I feel like that person. One moment, I was the girl that lost 100 pounds, trained for half marathons, loved eating healthy, and in the best shape I have been in ever. People said, "She's going places."

Since graduation, I feel I haven't gone anywhere, done anything. I still am the same part time job and do not qualify for any jobs out there. I would like to go back to college for an RN but I cannot afford it. All my accomplishments (weight loss, races) are things I have done in the last five years. Nothing in the six months, recent. My last race was in July. I thought about training for a full marathon. But the voice inside me says, "You can't. Look at your last attempt. You failed. You fail all the time." I know I need to do it because I need to believe in ME again. I just don't feel like I do anymore.

I know I am still the girl with the phoenix tattoo but feel I'm fading.
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    1928 days ago
    Dear Savannah:

    You talked about getting a waitressing job -- have you looked into that? It would be at least something temporary, help you replenish your $$$ and you can begin to save if you want to go back to school as an RN. Have you looked into any jobs @ a local hospital? At least you'd be in the hospital atmosphere and see if you like it. How about cardiac rehab? With your degree, you might be able to do that.

    It is tough, my dear, but don't give up and don't sell yourself short! You HAVE accomplished much, and are destined to accomplish much more.

    Hang in there.

    1928 days ago
    The biggest mistake you could ever make is being too afraid to make one. emoticon
    1928 days ago
    Don't listen to the naysayers! (Even if they are coming from you)

    So there are a few things that you tried and it didn't work the first time? Sometimes we trip and stumble on the path to success. Sometimes it takes starting over to get it right. There is greatness inside you, even if you falter and fail along the way. The choice is how you face those obstacles. You could crumble (but you won't!) or you can use challenges to build strength, perseverance and character!

    Look at how many things you tried and accomplished! Know that if you focus and stick to it, you can do anything you set out to do.
    1928 days ago
    Hang in there! Like 4A-HEALTHY-BMI said, you've already overcome tremendous odds and you just need to work your way out of this funk and keep on going. Most of us have been there at some point and it is possible even if you're feeling down on yourself right now. You can do this!
    1928 days ago
    chin up and focus. you can do anything you set your mind to
    1928 days ago
    Yeah those voices never really go away....we just need to listen to the other voices that talk louder, the ones that say, "I did this, I can do even more!"

    For 4 months after I ran my first marathon (at age 48), I relaxed & took it easy. It wasn't long before I could hardly run 5 miles without getting winded! The only way I could get back on track was to pick a target date and register for another marathon (I put $100 on my credit card!), then tell all my friends I was going to run another marathon....that got me back on track....a goal, money, and peer pressure!

    It's easy to start berating yourself saying, "What have I done lately"....the road back is accomplished with baby steps & consistency....just like you did when you eked out every step during your HM

    Good luck!
    1928 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/12/2013 10:05:35 PM
    you can't say you fail all the time,
    look at everything you've done.
    focus on how to make your dreams happen...even if you have to make sacrifices. And Since when does a marathon define who you are and what you can do?
    The only thing you have to do, is try SOMETHING you haven't done before. The past does not define what you can do.
    Be the Phoenix. emoticon
    1928 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/12/2013 9:58:41 PM
    For the weight loss, it's time to focus on maintaining for the next month. then six months. According to your data on the maintainer list, you've got less than six months to go before your 2-year maintenance anniversary.

    That is a BIG DEAL. See these stats:

    - The likelihood of regaining weight when you reach goal is 80% - 95%.
    - When you've maintained for 2 years the likelihood of regain drops to 50%.*
    - When you've maintained for 5 years the likelihood of regain drops to 27%!*

    If you can just maintain until July 21, you'll have beaten tremendous odds...


    So you see, getting to your weight loss goal was just the beginning. Now you're on your way to actually making it stick and THAT is a huge accomplishment.

    For the other things, yes goal setting can be helpful too. But I'll restrict myself to the topic I'm most comfortable with, here.

    1928 days ago
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