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The Real Problem

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I hate blaming my weight for my problems. The weight is actually just a symptom of the real problem. The real problem is that I am lost and I have been for a long time. I have always felt different and I don't know why. It was easy to use my weight as the reason why I was different when in all actuality it was me, my spirit that were different. I am realizing that I see the world differently than most people. The world is so full of beauty and magic. It is too easy to get corrupted by fear and greed. Amongst the beauty and ugliness of the world I am in search of my place. I know I am meant for great things, but I have yet to discover them. I am still struggling to figure out what I stand for and who I am meant to be. I have faith that I will one day figure it all out.

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    I grew up feeling the same way. I never understood other people, and they never understood me. Which is quite painful, especially for a child. At that age, you don't really know what to do about it, except pretend to be something that you're not. Pretend to be one of them. At least, that's what I did. Ah, but then it starts to slowly - slowly but surely - kill you.

    Not to bring religion in to the discussion, but I always remind myself that Jesus wasn't like everybody else, either. As a matter of fact, he shocked people with how different he was. To me, that makes him a role model. Besides, fitting in to this world isn't' the goal. It's the next world that matters.
    1865 days ago
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    I hear ya. I've known I was different, too. I've had to find several "tribes." It can be hard, but our inner selves are our real strength anyway. We just get thrown back on it more than some people. That can be its own blessing. It can look important to "do" things in the world, but without that connection, it's just a shell.

    It may not seem it, but you ARE finding your way.
    1870 days ago
    You are right my dear you are different-you are an amazing beautiful girl that knows how to make anyone smile...I think you need to work on making yourself see these things and build your confidence which will really help all of the other problems start to work themselves out...Love ya!
    1892 days ago
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