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Cupcakes Almost Did Me In

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

The potential to binge lately has been very persistent. But I have dealt with it for 6 days successfully!

Yesterday I needed to go to Walmart for groceries. I went a little hungry...bad move as we all know. But on my way into the store I did pray that I would get myself out of the store without any binge foods.

What happened right away? I walked to the back of the store to follow my regular path, and first thing I did was walk up to the discount bakery rack and eye up the 20 pack of mini cupcakes. Cupcakes and bakery cake of any form is my weakness, a purely binge food for me. I saw they were $3.60 and 360 calories for 3 of them. I put one pack in my cart, imagining the sweetness and creaminess of the frosting and the soft vanilla cake that I love so much. Fantasizing about eating most of them in the car before heading home, as I usually do when I buy cake.

As I went around the corner I thought I should probably put them right back. But no I wasn't motivated to do so. Right after that I came upon $1 valentine boxes of assorted chocolates. Put one in my cart for another binge. Perhaps keeping them in the cart if I did decide to put the cupcakes back. I went a little further and picked up some regular stuff.

As I thought about the desire I had to continue my binge free streak and not cut it short at day 5, when I knew that one time I'd had a 18 day streak which I planned to beat, I headed back to put the cupcakes back. I forced myself to shake away all thoughts of the pleasure of the binge. I put them back, looking around to see if anyone was looking (whatever that was all about!) And though it was out of place I laid the candy down there too. Not risking changing my mind and keeping them if I traveled all the way back to their rightful place in the store.

I felt good, and just a little bit victorious, but I didn't want to congratulate myself just yet, I was only half-way through the store. Besides, I had also promised myself that if I put back the whole box, I could instead pick up one cupcake if they had them in the bakery.

I got to the bakery and almost passed it by but was drawn to the donuts. I figured I could get one for 300 calories. But I was originally drawn to cupcakes, so I figured I would only be satisfied with a cupcake. Found one vanilla kid size cupcake. Not regular size but not really a mini. Just right for a snack. Probably about 300 calories. I figured it would fit into my requirements for the day.

I looked longingly at the caramel milky ways, my favorite, in the check-out line, maybe I could get it and eat half tomorrow and half the next day as planned treats. But, no, that may lead to a binge, and I had my snack for today.

I ate it and you know I didn't really enjoy it though I ate it slowly (in the car) and tried to savor it. I found myself fantasizing about the huge slices of cake with lots of frosting that they sell for under a dollar at my other grocery store.

I had to go to that other store because they didn't have almond milk today at Walmart. So there I went. They had NO cake slices out at all, so that helped me get out safely. But they didn't have the natural cheetos my son wanted for his daughter, so I went on to another store. At that store they also didn't carry those chips so on my way out the door I made a detour to the free cookie stand they always have there at the Harris Teeter. I ate it on my way to the car and that finally satisfied me.

I got home and wrote down my unplanned calories, and lo and behold, I was right on target for the time of day it was and wouldn't have to scrimp and save to make it within range.

I was satisfied. And lucky that I didn't go over for the day. I don't count that as a binge. For me a binge is usually a feeding frenzy and takes me over my calorie range by more that a couple hundred calories. Usually they are 1000-2400 calories extra for that day. I'd count it as a binge if I had 400-500 calories extra unplanned.

That's my story for today. Each day has it's own struggles, I am not struggling with binge urges today, nor am I craving sweets.

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  • LARISSA238
    Great job! I told you you could do it! Keep this in mind the next time you go shopping! If you don't have binge foods in the house, you can't binge. You are strong!
    1926 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Good for you staying away from the trigger foods and eating moderately. You are doing a great job of staying binge free.

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    1926 days ago
    congrats on your will power! Keep it up and your weight will melt off. Good luck with your journey! Lucinda
    1927 days ago
  • _JODI404
    *Y*A*Y* you!!!!! You did an awesome job on resisting all those delicious temptations!! (And there's so much extra out right now with Valentine's day!)

    I know it may be hard, but the best thing to do is try not to even go to those sections. Just do not allow yourself to "look". I told my husband, the best way to save money is don't go the mall/ Macy's. When I go, I may spend. When I stay away... I do not spend! May be oversimplifying compared to food... but any extra resistance you can put up is good.

    You should be proud, you did GREAT!! Keep that Streak going strong! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1928 days ago
    You are learning! Sounds like progress!
    1928 days ago
    Congratulations on a successful day. I'm very happy for yo.

    You know, at times, I have seen a bag of cookies or donuts in an odd place in a grocery store. From now on, if I see that, I will smile hoping it was from someone who had the strength to avoid a binge.

    I hope you have a great day tomorrow!
    1928 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Each day is new day with choices for us and all we can hope for is that we do our level best.

    And more important is the fact that you tracked the nutrition! Excellent job!

    1929 days ago
    emoticon I do the same thing putting trigger foods in my cart and then having to put them back and hope no one saw you when you put it down some where out of place. Well at least it did not get in to your tummy
    1929 days ago
    Well, done staying with your range and not falling into the binge. You can do it!
    1929 days ago
    Totally identify with your feelings in Walmart. I was thinking this morning, doesn't it suck that the stores are trying to just make us fat?? emoticon But you can't do your grocery shopping without being bombarded by candy and bakery goods, and Little Debbies and soft drinks IN YOUR FACE. It's tough! emoticon
    1929 days ago
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