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Leap and the Net Will Appear....

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Well, let's see...

MUSIC: Going strong!! The Trophy Husbands is a blast! I so love this band and the guys in it. We are doing ALL kinds of music, including a smokin' hot cover of the song "Bad Things" from True Blood. I have to say that accepting (yes, I said ACCEPTING, not BECOMING) that I am a sexy woman no matter WHAT my size seems to be the sexiest thing about me! I guess it's been kind of a "fake it until you make it" kind of deal. So everytime the guys say things about me being "hot" and talk about me singing to men who are going to pass out when I do - well, it's SMOKIN' HOT! But the most important thing is that music has ALWAYS been my biggest love, so getting out there and DOING it really has changed my life for the better. Do you have a dream that you put on hold? Something you like to do that you say, "Well, I don't have the time-energy-money-I'm not that good anyway-people will laugh- I'm too fat- not sexy enough"....FORGET THAT! (I would have said something else but I'll get CENSORED...) There's a book called "The Artist's Way" and the author's mantra is LEAP AND THE NET WILL APPEAR. Don't make excuses for why you CAN'T do something! There will always be SOMETHING. So LEAP. Okay, homily over... so IronSymphony is cruising along well, too. WE FINALLY HAVE A KEYBOARD PLAYER!!! I think he's a keeper, so I hope that band will be gigging out soon, too. As always, if you read my blog - go to Facebook and look up both bands and LIKE our page. That way you can see what we're up to! Plus it makes it look like we have TONS of fans, which isn't a bad thing either!

KIDS: Nothing new to report - which is FABULOUS in mommy speak, right?

JOB: Yikes... well, the Feds pulled the plug on the funding for my project. So last Monday I had to let all my people go. MAJOR SUCKAGE. But the good news is that I am still on board, and will be re-writing the cost allocation to hopefully please the Feds and get the project back on board. So it's all good.

LOVE LIFE: Okay, better go get another cup of coffee... I broke up with Gary. I caught him responding to an email that some girl sent him from the website that we both used to be on. It wasn't anything really bad, but HE RESPONDED. What the hell? I was married for 17 years to a man that constantly cheated on me. I WAS A DOORMAT - but hell no, I am not that girl anymore. I don't HAVE to be with any man to be sure I'm not alone. I CAN CHOOSE. (Again, that has NOTHING to do with the size of your body. We ALL deserve to be loved and to be in a relationship with a man/woman that cherishes us and adores us and is an equal partner. PERIOD.) So I was really hurt. REALLY HURT. I have been single since 2003 (serial dater with major trust issues), so to FINALLY trust a man enough to actually start LOVING him and be IN A RELATIONSHIP was huge for me. He has begged me to forgive him and I have agreed to still see him, but I'm also dating others again now. In fact, I'm going out with a very successful, rich guy tonight.... so there. Not even sure I WANT to do the relationship thing, although all my friends keep saying, "You need to settle down." Well... who says? I like boys... they like me... I'm busy... I will do whatever the hell I want. But........ yes, I miss him terribly sometimes.... *sigh* But enough of that. The other day, out of boredom, I started making a list of all the guys I've dated over the past few years (the ones I can remember anyway). Here's some for your entertainment (in no particular order):

1. John Hot Italian IT guy
2. John Fireman
3. Randy Bald IT guy
4. Gary Biker guy
5. Phillip Engineer guy
6. Alan Verizon guy
7. Brian Cheesecake Factory guy
8. Gary Hospice guy
9. Curt Fisherman guy
10. Travis Pool guy
11. Dennis Old guy
12. Edward SMOKIN’ HOT 4 hour guy
13. Joe Sweet Irish guy
14. Dave Music teacher clingy guy
15. Kyle Racist guy
16. Sean Black player guy
17. Ben English teacher guy
18. Thomas 27 year old guy
19. Blair Older guy from VA
20. Jim Police guy
21. Emile Egyptian guy
22. John Black sales guy
23. Steve Mini Stone Cold
24. Mark? ESPN Sports guy
25. Shaun Short, but hot guy
26. ? Young Latin guy (with small child)
27. Kevin Crazy medieval guy
28. Larry Crazy mothball recording guy
29. Vince Rich energy guy
30. Sean Irish Black Hummer guy
31. Travis 27 year old (in love with me) guy

FITNESS: Oh, yeah, that's why I'm on this site! Kind of cool and poignant that this was the LAST thing I thought about. Why? Because I'm not FIXATED on food, weight and diet anymore! I am still in a good place - haven't lost anything in a few weeks - but haven't gained, because for the most part I still practice my healthy HABITS. Yay! But I am looking forward to spring - I want to get back in the pool and get that last 50 pounds off. Then, alas, even more boys will get their hearts broken. It's really hard being the hottest 50-year-old on the planet... oh, wait! I turn 51 on February 21st! Isn't it grand that our age does NOT define us? Life is such a gift at any age. Another HUGE reason to take care of myself. I still have SO MUCH I want to do!

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  • HFAYE81
    LOL Girl you are awesome. Much love! emoticon emoticon
    1903 days ago
  • _BABE_
    These dating sites are such a temptation for one to lose focus but hell that ain't no excuse. You deserve to be cherished and he knew it and your know it so life goes on...thanks for the reminder. emoticon
    1923 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/13/2013 1:27:52 AM
    Looks like you should maybe leap less!!!! lol All kidding aside, if I could figure out what the heck I wanted to do, this is something I would look into, just leaping into it. But since I have no idea what I want to do, I'd just be leaping into a dark pit of despair!
    1924 days ago
  • _MOBII_
    What an update! You are sounding fantastic!!!!!
    1924 days ago
    Nice list, lol. Glad things are on the up and up! emoticon
    1924 days ago
    Love LEAP AND . . .! I'll be using that for inspiration. I'm so glad to hear that you are enjoying your music so much, and that things are holding steady with your kids. It's too bad about your work mates, but I'm glad you still have a job. You know, looking at your dating list made me tired. Clearly you have energy I do not. :) I'm sorry to hear about Gary, but you are in a good place I think -- it's good to hear that you are not letting him treat you badly. You deserve so much good. Wish I could come hear your band sometime!
    1924 days ago
    You're awesome. Have I told you that lately?
    1924 days ago
    You are one busy lady! I love that you have your music to escape to. I haven't been able to sing in months, and it's looking like we won't be doing anything until late April. *sigh* It looks like that part of my life is coming to an end. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted.
    1924 days ago
    Great update.... seems like you are sparking in all categories of your life. Way to face the job funding with drive towards moving forward. Sorry G wasn't ready to be just yours at this time. Yet you are moving forward and growing. I was wondering what was going on in your life that makes you not know the names of some guys at one stage in life? Just a thought.

    (I have a memory lapse like that too...)

    emoticon emoticon Happy V Day even so!
    1924 days ago
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