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A Little Low

Monday, February 11, 2013

Today I feel a little low. Just venting a little, here.

I weighed today. And lost another pound. That is good, right? Yes.

I measured my "parts and pieces" today, too, to see if there has been any change from OCTOBER. The discouraging part is that 1) when I went into the holidays, I was 180 lbs. Then had some significant stress and ended up gaining 10 lbs. Here it is the middle of February and I am still NOT where I was in November. UGH. 2) Not to mention, only one measurement has changed. I know I am complaining. It is to myself! This is such a slow process! And really, have I just been deceiving myself about my progress?

Then to make matters worse, my husband says, "Are you sure your walking is doing you any good?"

Well, that says a lot. Even he can't see any significant changes in me.

BOO HOO! emoticon

So, what can I encourage myself with since I don't feel like I receive encouragement from husband?

1) Recognize that he really isn't trying to hurt my feelings. (Well, sometimes it think he is, the big oaf) And he really doesn't know how to encourage me. AND he himself is struggling more than I am. (Do I hear forgiveness anyone?)
2) I have lost 18 lbs since I started (before I even joined SP). I used to weigh around 200 lbs. That is something.
3) I have taken 4 exercise classes I never thought I could do and it has inspired me to join a class when I get back to WA.
4) I actually started running some on my walks. I have never done that before.
5) Most of the time I do feel better about myself.
6) My clothes do fit better, even if Randy doesn't notice.
7) I have made significant progress in controlling binges.
8) I have made a lot of self discovery about why I eat the way I do and how I can change.
9) I have stopped secret eating.
10) My body IS stronger for all the walking I have done.

So there! And if nobody else can see it, I CAN!

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    Thanks! :)
    1898 days ago
    wow such huge progress, way to go so very proud of you
    1898 days ago
    I think it is terrific that you have made such great progress in self-discovery and the benefits of recognizing that what you are doing is for yourself. Look at all you have accomplished that you thought was just a wish list a few short months ago! Sometimes we have to be our own cheerleaders, even our ONLY cheerleaders at times but just knowing we are doing the right thing can set us in the right direction. It is discouraging when numbers don't reflect our hard work so we need to rely on other internal changes that keeps us moving forward. I send my kudos and good thoughts. emoticon
    1898 days ago
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