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Had a bad dream... or was it?!?!

Monday, February 11, 2013

I had a horrible dream last night and I didn't feel as though I could get out of it. I hate those!

You see, I have been gearing up to start my journey again, but since I've done this so many times, I feel like it's just a routine. When am I going to really make it stick? I mentally started about 3 or 4 weeks ago, went for my physical and talked to my doctor about 2 weeks ago and since then, I've been doing really pretty well. I've lost 7 pounds in less than 2 weeks and last week, I went to a medical weight control clinic and began getting a serious of B12 shots along with a few supplements. However, over the weekend, I just didn't have the energy like I wanted. I took a walk and we went places, but I really just didn't have the energy that I was hoping for. I didn't eat enough and I think that's because I was mentally aware that I wasn't being as active.

So, last night, I had a dream that I had gained back the 7 pounds plus more. I remember seeing myself in the mirror and horrified that I failed at my weight loss journey again and I was so miserable. I didn't feel like I could move and I was very uncomforable. I remember thinking in my dream that "I was feeling so good and was able to move so much better when I didn't have this weight on me (as little as it was)"... I can't imagine how good I would feel if I lost the weight that I really need to.

This morning, I'm geared up... again... still!!! I started my morning with ice water (which is such a hard thing for me to do) and planned my day/week really well. I'm excited to see how good I feel with more weight off... for good!!!

I'm a DONE girl!!!
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  • UNICORN212
    Sounds more like a nightmare! I heard that water with lemon - not cold, but warm or lukewarm - in the morning can help wake up your metabolism. It might be worth a try. But kick the heavy image to the curb and start visualizing yourself at your goal weight - the mind is a powerful thing!
    1924 days ago
    It's all part of the process - starting again You will do it when you're ready. And I think you're ready. Best wishes for success.
    1925 days ago
    emoticon Congratulations on the Progress you have already made!!

    Use the Dream as a Motivator, to remind you WHY this Journey is worth it when you are wanting to skip a Workout, or take that Second Helping of Something Delicious!! It can become a Valuable Piece of Ammunition in this Battle!
    1925 days ago
    Thank goodness it was only a dream! You were able to wake up and do a reality check to see it was not true.
    1925 days ago
    @KTACKEBE and @BESTMEPOSSIBLE - Thank you!!! You're right, I can do it. I just really need to stick with SP and make myself accountable!!!

    @NIKKICOLE83 - Thank you!!! I appreciate your words and great advice!

    @TRACYNES3 - Thanks so much!!! I appreciate how you guys have been able to offer some understanding and that "we've been there" type of support. It gets frustrating when you see how hard you worked to achieve something and then have to turn around and do it again... only when you're older! LOL... We actually live here in Phoenix and I work downtown at Chase Field. It's been rather cold this year, but nothing compared to what some others have gotten!! Canada must be beautiful though. Will you ever come back to AZ?
    1925 days ago
    Dreams like that are scary! I understand about the starting and restarting so many times, it's like a revolving door. I used to lose weight for a reason, wedding, vacation, reunion, my hubby finally said this time why don't you lose weight and get in shape because you think you're fat and not for a specific moment in time. And I realized he was right, I don't need an event to look good and feel good, but need to go it so I can enjoy everyday. Where in Arizona are you? We lived there for the last 4 years and came back to Canada so my daughter could go to university, I miss it everyday!
    1925 days ago
    That is a scary dream that can become reality if you aren't careful. All of us have tried and failed and tried and failed again, but one time, it sticks. This may just be your time. That nightmare may have been your mental trigger saying, Enough is enough! Use that momentum to make good choices and move more. Dont expect perfection because you will have those days where you will be too tired to workout. You will also have those times when you want that sweet treat. That is okay. Just make 3 times as many good choices as bad ones and you will do great!
    1925 days ago
    Sounds like youa are using that dream to feul your goals. You CAN do it!
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