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Never-ending battle

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I have not been very diligent in keeping myself motivated and there's really no excuse when I have access to the wonderful tools here. Losing weight, for me, is not only a physical process. In fact, that's the least of it, really. Losing weight takes a lot of introspection. A lot of self-analysis, a lot of working through emotional pain and a lot of blatant self-honesty. In honouring that self-honesty, I must say I only allow myself to go so far when something stops me. Losing too much weight doesn't feel safe to me just yet. I know it will, especially if I continue to feel better about myself, learn to value myself JUST THE WAY I AM and continue to be kinder to myself each day. This is a process, isn't it? It is a journey and sometimes, my road map has become illegible and I lose my way. But, I always manage to find my way back. I think we continue to succeed when we continue making the effort. I know I will be standing in front of a mirror one day at my goal weight (a size that I have decided is right for me and no one else) and I will be able to say, "what an amazing trip. You finally got to where you wanted to go." Until then, I will stand in front of the mirror each day and say, "you've done another day and you continue on your way and you're incredible." Yup. That's what I'll say.
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    Your blog is very powerful. So many of us do the same thing. I do too. I thank you for your candid sharing and I wish you the best of luck as we continue on this healing trip. Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon Love, Chelsea
    1927 days ago
    You have a great attitude! This journey is a process of one step at a time and we move forward when we are ready to. It is a matter of persevering and making the effort, even if it is only a few inches at a time.
    I have been on SP for 2 1/2 years, and for the first two years it was a struggle of loss and gain, loss and gain, until everything seemed to click and I was ready to move through the fears that held me back. In the last 6 months I have lost about 32 pounds. So you are wise to not compare yourself to others; just continue on one step at a time as you are able and you will accomplish your goals.
    1929 days ago
    emoticon "you've done another day and you continue on your way and you're incredible." Yup. That's what I'll say.
    You Go!!
    1931 days ago
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