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Shame or Accountability

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Last night I removed my shared food tracker off of my Spark page. I was embarrassed of what I ate yesterday, which seriously I'm not sure HOW I ate so much. I mean not figuratively but literally I'm not sure how it all fit. LOL.

When I woke up this morning I realized that the thing that I love the most about Sparkpeople is the fact that there is extra accountability. I mean it's not that I think there are people out there policing my food tracker, or really people that care about it at all. But IF someone stumbles upon it, I feel I should be as proud of what I am eating as I can.

However; I am human and if I just ate perfect all the time that wouldn't be a very good representation of true life either. I mean I did eat like that for almost a year, and I don't know how I did it. I have no idea how I went without "bad" food for so long. There really is NOTHING wrong with having a treat, or a TON of treats like yesterday.

I know I really should practice some moderation but, I shouldn't be ashamed of anything I do. Sure I look back on it and am a little disappointed in myself, but it was MY action. I have to own up to, move on and hopefully learn something from it.

In all reality, even though I do have occasions of over indulgence I am still ending the weeks with large deficits and most importantly I am learning to live in THIS world. This world of good and bad food, this world of indulgence and I am learning to find the balance of health and living.
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    I agree with Mrshoneycomb... I am glad you took the tracker off... it is all about you and only you. And I think it is really important to live in the real world of food. And learn how to eat. Not binge, but eat. Sometimes I just feel like eating... and eating a lot. You are not alone. They key is to not make everyday a spurge day. You are doing fantastic. Way to treat yourself with love and respect. emoticon emoticon
    2231 days ago
    2232 days ago
    emoticon I prefer real people....a small percentage of people on Spark would judge you on what you ate....and the other large percentage could really care less ...they care about you! Don't be ashamed be REAL!
    2233 days ago
    Oh my goodness! I just took a look at your page and your amazing story. Hey, girl I wouldn't give that one day a second thought. After your journey I know that you're not going to make that a new way of life.
    Everybody overindulges now and then.
    2233 days ago
    Maintenance is hard. I've been there and failed and now I'm losing the weight again. It is no fun. Whatever you do, don't stop moving and exercising, eat right more than you splurge, and keep trying to figure out what works for you.

    I wish you the best. I know this is not easy, but just take one day at a time and it will eventually become second nature. Just like weight loss, it takes time and trial and error, one step back two steps forward, etc. I'm rooting for you!!

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    2233 days ago
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