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New Me In Process

Sunday, February 10, 2013

It is the start of my 7th week of "making a new me."
When I began this life changing journey, I was scared.
Scared that I would fail...


Yet, there was also a sense of excitement.
Something felt different this time.
Finding SparkPeople, reading success stories, reading blog posts, seeing that people were fighting the same battle, I felt an expectation that I would succeed IF ONLY...

But, isn't this the way it always is?
You start out with what you are going to eat, how many days a week you are going to exercise, you write everything down, you have a PLAN!
But, after you lose a few pounds, it's not quite as exciting anymore. You are finding excuses for not exercising. You don't want to write down that you ate a half of a bag of Skittles (yep, that's my kryptonite!), you really dislike fruits and vegetables so why can't you just eat macaroni and cheese instead?
Oh snap it's like this:


I AM making a new me.
I still dislike most vegetables and fruits.
I find that if I can just get up and get started, I don't mind doing my exercises.
And, having been under the weather this week, I didn't exercise and I wasn't great on food choices although I never went over my calorie limit (okay, I don't count my skittles emoticon ).
I didn't get on the scale at all this week until today because I was worried that I would have gained.


I thanked God for helping me through the past week, keeping me on track, and showing me that I have made changes. Small ones, maybe. Nevertheless, I am changing.

Changing my mindset.
Changing my food choices. Although, yes, I still have cravings.
Changing my patterns.

I still suffer from depression, still have low self-esteem issues, but I am making those small daily improvements that will lead to a healthy weight and hopefully raise my self-esteem and lessen my depression. Therefore, my long term results will be staggering!

I WILL be that beautiful, sparkling woman I know is hidden inside this chubby, depressed body!

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  • JIVANA108
    The quote in the beginning says it all. I have horrible self esteem, and need to change the way i think and start loving myself more.
    Also the cards in your picture are beautiful are they Louise Hay cards by chance? where can I get them? motivating :)

    2192 days ago
    emoticon you are doing great and please keep the blogs coming. I really enjoy reading them and relate to so many things you write. Also, I enjoy all the photos!
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    2201 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    Great blog and just the way I was feeling- I told my son- I better go online because I need some spark people inspiration emoticon
    2202 days ago
    You are a gifted blogger! You are doing great. Keep on keeping on!
    2203 days ago
  • MAGA99
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    2203 days ago
    That's the right attitude!! It's small steps!! I've been gone all week. I am feeling crummy that I have been so bad and wanted to tuck tail and run. But, I logged in and read your blog and I suddenly remember what it was that I told you weeks ago: Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps!

    So, that you, for inspiring me to let go of my guilt and move on! You are doing awesome!!! I am so proud of you!! Keep up the fantastic work!!
    2203 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    You are doing great! You're moving in the right direction, you know what you need to do and you're not afraid to admit when you have a tiny set back like too many skittles. :) You are so on the right track and there's no doubt in my mind you will meet your goal and just so you know. I think you are beautiful! Love you! HUGS!
    2203 days ago
  • MARY0825
    You have such a way of expressing yourself! I so relate to so much of what you share and thank you for sharing. :-)
    2203 days ago
    You ARE that beautiful, sparkling woman now! You just haven't got the right lenses with which to see her. Trust me -- I see her now!

    And remember, you can't fail as long as you keep on trying. emoticon

    PS - I hope you are feeling much better now!
    2203 days ago
    I can relate to your post on many levels..........I will support you however I can. Try and be kind to yourself, often us women are our own worst enemies......I have called this my Renaissance year and am trying to be gentler to myself.....It is difficult, but with the support from people on this forum we shall persevere....

    Have a wonderful day!
    2203 days ago
  • JMC155
    emoticon and taking the little steps. Each step adds up and before you know it that step is a new habit.
    2203 days ago
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    Every healthy choice tips the scales in your favor!

    2203 days ago
    emoticon small steps go a long way
    2203 days ago
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