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Come Too Far To Give Up Now

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I'm embarrassed to say it, but I blew it yesterday. I had had a great eating and exercising day. I ran 12 miles with my Galloway group. I ate well, right at the top of my calorie range. Then I went to bed and couldn't sleep. I felt hungry and thought that maybe with my long run I hadn't eaten enough calories for my activity level. (Excuses?) I got up and had cereal and milk, taking me over my calorie range. Even so, I might have been okay if I'd stopped there, but I didn't. There were crackers and more cereal -- way too much. I finally got to sleep.

I have no perspective on this event at this moment. I saw a middle 3 on the scale for the first time this year, after having my lowest weigh in for 13 months (126.6) earlier this week. The best I can say is that I've come too far to give up now. In fact, I've come too far to give up ever again! I'm back on it this morning.

Edit: I took out the words, "I am disgusted with myself," because Monty Mirage727 says no one want to read it. Besides, I'm past it now!!
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    Don't be too hard on yourself, it will all work out!
    1896 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Cereal and crackers -high sodium content- weight may be just a sodium gain. Maybe you didn't have enough electolytes or water and that is why you felt the cravings.. I am sure you have no worries with the scale..
    No, you will never give up, that is for sure!!
    I am glad you took out the words disgusted with myself. One of the first things we got to learn is to never beat ourselves up, it serves no useful purpose to our healthy journeys. They are just lessons learned. Hard, but that is what makes you stronger!
    1899 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    Just remember it is never a single day, it is a combination of days where you continue to do this. This will average out over a weeks time-don't beat yourself up, just take this into your totals and emoticon .

    1899 days ago
    You. Will. Never. Give. Up.

    And you didn't. You ran hard. You were hungry. You ate. Entirely appropriate. Your weight will settle back down again within 48 hours, guaranteed.

    No way you should permit yourself to be disgusted with yourself ever. Just edit that out permanently, Marsha. You are awesome. You deserve to be proud of yourself every day, all day long.
    1899 days ago
    Boy, have I been where you were last night!!! The truth is that you most likely did need extra calories but should have increased your protein at dinner. I fight with this all the time. You might also have needed more water. Running 12 miles can really deplete your body of necessary fluid. When I exercise for several hours, this can be a problem for me too. Hunger and thirst can often be mixed up. I've had times when I'll graze and graze and still feel hungry. If I follow up the eating with water sometimes it stops the urge to eat. Just a thought......

    Don't beat yourself up over it because it gets in the way of today's success. You will be back with the "2" firmly in place before the week ends!
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    1899 days ago
    Marsha, I read all your responses and don't think there is one thing for me to add, except you are doing great! Enjoy your Sunday.
    1899 days ago
    Thanks for sharing. I can relate to the "I've come too far to give up now".
    1899 days ago
    OK, you do know that endurance exercise, especially long runs, result in increased fluid in the tissue as a part of the recovery process and that often means temporary scale gain (which is not the same as real weight gain). Do you eat a recovery meal immediately after running? That is important. It sounds to me like you really were hungry. What's more important, scale or health? It's quite possible that strength training will increase your scale weight from added muscle. Will you consider that bad too?
    1899 days ago
    Oh my's for sure that you and I have learned that these are the times when we have to just move on and get back on track. I just had two days of not such good eating but as I woke up this morning and got on the scale and it punished me with a 2.5 lb gain, I just said to myself.....okay time to get back to work. I wasn't upset as now I do know that I know what works and what to big deal!!! And for me, I reminded myself that I feel good and healthy and that is so very important to me at this stage of my life.
    But the way, thanks again for all your support. You probably remember that I too have a DH that doesn't get along with my Mother. They have not spoken for like 3 years and haven't seen each other either. DH basically isn't welcomed at my sister and mother's place anymore. It's a pain in the butt for me and I wish they both would understand the pressure it puts on me and get their acts together but not going to happen. Oh well, I accept it and know I can't change it.
    Such is life.
    Have a terrific day today!
    1899 days ago
    As long as it wasn't "mindless eating" , and it obviously wasn't, you're just fine. I think your body probably really needed the carbs and you ARE tuned to listening to your body. Your choices weren't all that bad. I think you know how I feel about the veracity of the scale. I'm betting within a week your body will have settled down and you'll be back in your happy place. Because, you do what you need to do! emoticon
    1899 days ago
    Monty has great advice!! Listen to him.
    1899 days ago
    LOL, I am late to the comment party apparently. You gotta love Spark friends like you have, Marsha, who will tell you when you're over the top with that black / white, absolute evil / absolute good thinking. A blip on the scale today can be fuel to just stay the course.

    And as several of the commenters said, you may have been absolutely right about needing more calories. The scale bump can be as simple as you changed the time of day at which you ate & it hasn't processed through the system so you're carrying a little more water. YOU are going to be fine, because as your edit says, you're already past it.

    And that, my friend, is why you are successful! emoticon

    1899 days ago
  • KANOE10
    There is an expression, " I have come too far to be defeated by a cookie." You have the right attitude. You have come too far on this road to health to let a detour derail you. Good for you being back on track this am. You can do it. I am sure with workouts and st that the weight will come off soon.

    I feel the same way this am. The scale is up and I am not happy. I know I ate high sodium yesterday so that is likely the cause. Let's both knock off those pounds together.

    1899 days ago
  • GABY1948
    You are SO strong, Marsha. DON'T look back...only forward! This is only one SMALL step back and that's spark's "motto" ...two steps forward and one step back...and you have gone MANY steps forward and just now taken one step back!

    emoticon emoticon and I give you a big emoticon because you came and fessed up and will get right back on that horse!

    1899 days ago
    We all have days like that....I have had a couple in a row now. Figuring out why and getting back on track. emoticon
    1899 days ago
  • -AMANDA79-
    You know that you didn't really gain that much weight, right? It takes 3500 calories to make a pound and your late night binge did probably wasn't over 1000.
    Everyone has their moments. It's called being human. I'm sure the scale will be more cooperative in a day or two.
    1899 days ago
    You haven't blown it unless you don't forgive yourself . It's a new day. You HAVE come too far. I know this is only a little hiccup for you. You are doing amazingly well and inspire so many.
    1899 days ago
    Hunger means something...eating when you did was the right thing to do IMO because your body NEEDED the nutrients. Geez - you ran 12 miles!!! Next time, put the cereal box away right after you pour the cereal and have some extra milk in a glass on the side - it will help you fall asleep! :) Glad to hear you moving on this morning, it's the way to go!
    1899 days ago
    Put it behind you and have a better day!
    1899 days ago
  • MAGGIE101857
    This is why I love SparkFriends! They are there with encouraging words while also telling you to pull up your big girl panties and emoticon beating yourself up! Look how far you have come!!! I'm betting it's the long run syndrome as well!!

    You are emoticon , beautiful lady!!! Go look emoticon ; you'll see what we all see!!!
    1899 days ago
  • MIRAGE727
    Ok, you did what you did, Marsha! We've all been there. I'm going to bet within 72 hours or sooner, everything will be right with the world. You're rollin' in maintain moonlight and you're doin' well!

    Everyday, I'm expecting fluctuation. You just massage it into your nutrition for the next few days, do some FUN cardio and ST...and "you'll be fine!" (D says that to me all the time!) If you read my latest race blog, I acted like a lil' drama queen during my latest 10K! I also started beating myself up while I was running and should have been in a better place mentally. We're fine!

    I don't want to hear from ME, you, or anyone else for that matter, "I am disgusted with myself." We embrace the journey, we're always adjusting our walk, but we keep walking! We lead by example and you're a good leader!

    Now, like Cher said to Nicolas Cage in Moonstruck, "Snap out of it!"

    Much love...
    1899 days ago
    You have tremendous discipline. If I run 12 miles or do a hard bike ride, I will likely go over my calorie range because my body is totally depleted. Successful weight control is a lifestyle change and you have changed your lifestyle hugely!

    I know what you are thinking. Does your mid-night snack represent the start of the slippery slope back to an unhealthy lifestyle?

    My answer is no way. I know you won't let a minor binge derail your healthy lifestyle. You can quit beating yourself. We all blow it every once in a while.

    Sometimes our bodies do not cooperate. Your temporary "middle 3" on the scale is most likely water weight because of your long run. Do your clothes still fit?

    I think you are doing exceptionally well.



    1899 days ago
    Oops is the word, and then move on. You can do it and I know you will!

    Every once in awhile I wake up hungry like you did, middle of the night. (Sounds like you had plenty good reason with your active day.) My go to snack is a small piece of toast with peanut butter and half a glass of milk. It puts me right to sleep. But I think the reason it works is that it is the only thing I ever eat in the middle of the night. In other words, it is THE PLAN and makes it easier to stick to. If it is an idea that works for you too, I hope you grab it!!

    Meanwhile, have a rocking Sunday. It's a whole new day to get it right!

    1899 days ago
    We don't stop being human when we reach goal. Actually, I think things can become a bit trickier when we reach goal.

    You're doing great and you are ALWAYS an inspiration. You'll be back on track in no time flat! Pat
    1899 days ago
    Don't beat yourself up, but use it as inspiration to refocus. Keep it in perspective, splurging on cereal and crackers after a full day is not going to ruin a solid program that you have built.
    1899 days ago
  • EOWYN2424
    I'm worse! I snack all the time! And for no apparent reason!
    1899 days ago
    We were on the same wavelength last night. My run was 4 miles shorter than yours, but the same mindset around 10pm. I must need more calories, I'm hungry. Hello, wheat thins! The only thing that saved me is that the box was nearly empty.
    Sometimes a long run will cause an upward blip all itself. It will be gone soon. You have the right attitude.
    1899 days ago
    Pick yourself up and start things over today! You have not blown everything. You set yourself back a little bit, but it is not anything you can't overcome. You can do it! Keep at it!
    1899 days ago
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