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Before and After, Part II

Saturday, February 09, 2013

I recently posted a couple of photos about what I looked like before I started Spark people and how I look now. I did not know I would need to follow up and write a blog about my progress so far when I originally posted those photos. I know I have come far. I know I still have some ways to go. I know every day can be a struggle, some more so than others.

I began my journey more than three years ago. If I was like the Slowest Loser, www.dailyspark.com/blog_

I should have met my goal by now. Instead I have been more like the inconsistent loser, setting some goals, reaching them, rewarding myself, enjoying the rewards, and then, sometimes, moving in the opposite direction- only to have to lose the weight again!
I had many spark friends who have struggled with the same. Some of them are no longer active on SP. I miss them. Life sometimes gets in the way or steers us off course.
We have worked hard to get the weight off, reached a goal or an occasion and then simply stopped using the tools we have learned for success. Why?

Am I a self saboteur? Or am I just human? Do I think I don't deserve to have the healthy life I envision? Do I just get lazy and stop, not wanting to make it a priority anymore. Probably a little of each.

Last BLC round I was on FIRE!! I think I actually was the Biggest Loser, at least I know that for a few rounds to be true.
This round, I am closer to my goal. I am losing weight more slowly. I am having days where all I want to do is eat, sometimes holding off and sometimes not.
I have posted I will make it to my goal weight by the end of this challenge period. Is it reachable? Realistically~ probably not at a healthy rate of weight loss. Am I okay with that? Or am I settling? Or am I more motivated by this and the possibility of actually getting there? Not quite sure as I have mixed emotions. I don't want to settle or "give up" but I do know losing weight, at a slower rate, it is more likely to stay off.
Three and 1/2 weeks into the challenge and I have lost 4.5 lbs. That is more than a pound a week. emoticon

If I can continue to lose a pound a week, I will be that much closer to my goal weight. This is realistic and short term goals are better for me, at least I think. They are not as overwhelming and added up, they bring me toward those long terms goals.

And I know I need to do more positive self talk. I need to focus more on my accomplishments and emoticon abilities, and less on the words of self doubt which have been dancing around in my head at times, contributing to the cycle of negativity, bringing me further from my goals.

So check back with me in 8 1/2 weeks.
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  • GABBY98_80
    What is your ultimate goal loss (needed pounds to lose) and number of weeks to lose it in?

    I think you are right- setting achievable goals is MUCH more important.

    So if you have like 20 pounds to lose in 5 wks- doable (if you do nothing but work out everyday all day) but not so healthy.

    If on the other hand you have 10 pounds in 5 wks. It might not hurt to aim for the goal and be satisfied with whatever happens. Do your best.

    Your blog was awesome

    2489 days ago
    Very insightful blog! I know you can you it, you're such an inspiration, staying positive is going to be difficult now that the loss have slowed down, but you can do it just like you've even going for so long. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2492 days ago
    Great blog. Everything you say sounds eerily familiar because I've asked myself the same questions and thought the same thoughts a million times. You're at where I want to be sometime this year, so thanks for the inspiration.
    2494 days ago
  • no profile photo DNJEN471
    You are awesome! I always say- focus on what you can do today, not on what you could've done yesterday! You've got a positive outlook! Great job!!
    2494 days ago
  • JLITT62
    You say I'm an inspiration, but I could have basically written this blog!

    But you know what? I think struggling for so long can actually be helpful . . . I'm not too scared of maintenance. I know it won't be easy, but I maintained for such long times during this journey . . . I've gotten good at it!
    2494 days ago
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    Great inspiration!
    2494 days ago
    So well expressed. What you say really helps me think about some things that are significant for my own journey .

    You have inspired me repeatedly. thanks!!
    2494 days ago
  • SINGER73
    I love reading your blog. I could have written it. You will get to goal. It doesn't matter if you don't reach goal by the end of the challenge. It's slow and steady weight loss that wins the race. emoticon
    2494 days ago
    I love your blog. I'm a big fan of slow & steady. You are making great progress. You can do! emoticon

    emoticon on reaching Alpha Centauri!
    2495 days ago
    You are on fire! I know that you can keep it up because you've set your mind to do it. emoticon
    2495 days ago
    Wonderful blog! Your words and actions are very inspiring! emoticon
    2495 days ago
    I'm always inspired when I read your blogs! I know you'll achieve your goal! emoticon
    2495 days ago
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