What do I want really?

Thursday, February 07, 2013

(I'm not really good at blogging, but I speak a lot, please forgive me in advance...)

When I was much younger, I worried my dad, because no matter how much I ate, I would never gain weight. I was very very thin and very short. Within a year of my arrival to the US, all of that changed. I grew quickly in many different ways- vertically and horizontally. I never thought too much of it, so long as I was happy and able to function. I moved through life without placing much emphasis on my diet or on exercise.

This all changed when I got on my scale and it rounded past the 200 lb mark. I could not believe that I had gained weight to that point, primarily because although my clothes were slightly tighter I could still put them on without too much issue. I joined spark people with a friend and with the determination to lose weight and develop a more healthy lifestyle. But soon after joining and losing a few pounds, I became bogged down with work and school.

A year has passed, and I have decided to start over again. My first question to myself was, "What do I want?" The second is, "really?" These are the questions that keep me trudging to the gym at hours I could be sleeping- the questions that push me to look at my present self and who I want her to be...
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  • SWAN47
    As you get healthier - eating and exercise usually a lot of answers come about as you take this journey. I wish you great success. Don't give up - even if there are days when you mess up. We are all in this together... emoticon
    1903 days ago
  • KA_JUN
    Self audits are valuable to assess the motivation we have. Helps us plan, visualize and implement to achieve our goals long term. Don't give up! emoticon
    1903 days ago
    Instead of just asking, "What do I want?", you might want to ask some more specific questions such as, "Do I want to lose weight?", or "Do I want to get more fit?". Others might be, "Do I want to be more relaxed?" or "Do I want better relationships with the people in my life?" All of these are issues that can be worked on. The questions point to certain behaviors that you can use to help grow past the obstacles. Just a thought. Glenn
    1903 days ago
    Have you found a successful answer to the what and really questions? It sounds like you are making progress. I think many of us ask the first question but the second is the REALLY important one - do you REALLY? I am glad you posted this.
    1903 days ago
  • REBECKY441
    1903 days ago
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